downwardsfromzero That is a good suggestion, thank you. It's absolutely a part of the cake, it's coneccdet to a moral system... But a quite resonable one I think.
It's mostely about, in this case, what you
bismillah are writing. The urge to go on, past what you thought of before starting.
The freezer has never really been an option, but we'll see
As it has been up untin now, I only make small quantities (with about 60-100mg dmt). This I can take in one session.
But it can be/are many factors. It's always at the end after perhaps 1.5 - 2h, when I dont get really lost in another world when taking more, but keeping the mind 'large', but also this high that makes me crave for more. It could be that the harmalas has stopped working by that time. I take 30-50 mg sublinguial.
Thanks for replying! I've read many of your posts here on the forum over the last year. Great to be 'in touch' now
EDIT.
I forgott to anwer your question
downwardsfromzero.
Well it still has purposes, a part of my interest is getting to feel more sides of me/the world. And this is happening, also with this craving and the thoughts around that. This is all good.
I think why I wrote here was more about to hear if someone else also recognized this... and to have thoughts around it like your questions made me have. So thank you again