I'm happy your trying to make the first experience to be a breakthrough.
It'll be a good experience for your first one if you pull it off.
I had similar thoughts on my first attempt.
Didn't expect the intensity from DMT and probably didn't take enough DMT. Never left the waiting room but it was still an amazing new insane experience. I loved it.
Second time around I had a breakthrough since I got comfortable at that point when handling it.
Didn't have a feeling of being scared, dying, or panic.
Was just calm and warm. The intensity wasn't anything at that point. You just get really happy when you know your going to hyperspace wherever that may be.
I hope on your first trip you blast off new traveler!
Grass Grows When The Tiny Cat is Dreaming
Phangz wrote:
"this is your height on dmt.."