Hello everyone!

My name is Julien.

First off, I'm an ex heavy-addict (meth, ghb, benzos) that got saved by psychedelics. I did start psychedelics during my peak in drug binging expecting it to just be more drugs...something unexpected happened, it made me stop drugs...I started connecting with the universe receiving messages from beyond, so much challenges came to me and my brother during these times my perception of life completely changed, my need to get high slowly disappeared I've been clean for months now I only smoke weed, it keeps me grounded to reality!!!

I used to suffer from debilitating anxiety (could take me 2 hours to have the courage to go do the groceries sometimes would say fuck food and just take more drugs) and depression and hatred for life/self hatred were guiding me in everything I did. Took all medication on the market each of them worsen my condition and the benzos became a powerful addiction. But, Since my most profound psychedelic/spiritual experience with changa I dint experience any anxiety and I cant grasp the concept of depression anymore, like I remember what it is...but it became alien to me if that makes sense?! After the experience, I spent like 3 hours with a giant smile(smiling was alien to me to the point that if I tried to fake it my face would shake uncontrollably) laughing and crying, after 1 hour of repeating HOLY S*** HOLY F*** and all the variables haha.

I rap a little, turned from emo/suicidal horrorcore rap to anti depression anti drug music to psychedelic rap. Artist name is...you guessed it...same as user name LiL FunnY!

I'm here to help me get ready for shroom hero doses, and to get advices to reach hyperspace, for some reason I don't get dmt c.e.v.'s. And I want to learn the most I can on ayahuasca because there's no way I'm living this life without living this at least once. And of course to learn as much as I can about psychedelics and other dimensions!

That makes perfect sense to me. I was actually talking about a similar phenomenon which happened to me, but concerning alcohol and pornography. It's not that I'm compelled not to. It's actually something I just don't feel like doing/looking at anymore. I'm incredibly glad this happened to you, and that you're no longer doing those harmful drugs.

I can only comment on the Ayahuasca analogue colloquially known as Jurema. It's what changed my life less than a week ago. I will say that it was definitely not a "fun" experience the same as all the other psychedelics I've done have been (save Salvia). But if you're looking for a harrowing and beautiful yet TRULY enlightening experience for the soul, it's super cheap and easy to make if you follow some of the teks on this nexus.

yeah exactly its like it just got me rid of these habits that I thought were needs like superficial things in life actually became superficial they lost their meaning.

I dint even know there was ayahuasca analogues, I will definitely look into it thanks! It's not really about fun or not fun experience, its about what it brings you!

Let me know what you find in your research. I'd be more than willing to help you out in understanding what to do.

I know it's complicated on many degrees. But you can do it

Welcome lil funny


Getting off those kind of drugs is no joke.
Much respect for that.

You will find everything you are looking for here.

Have a gud one

You did what's impossible for most and I've known many people who can never shake off the addiction. Lots of my family members succumb to this. I'm really happy your on your way to something great

Welcome to the lovely collective.

Julien, welcome. It took a lot of courage for you to do everything you did, and write about it here. I had more than a passing familiarity with benzos for a couple of years myself and know it can be tough to shake that.

Hope you find everything you need. This is a marvelous, generous community.

You have a lived a life. If you are putting it in your music, then it's bound to help someone. Glad you're here.