That's a nicely written report with a clear message.
It would be even nicer with a few paragraph breaks (my poor old eyes...)
"Bad" experiences bring the silver lining of knowing to avoid making the same mistake again! You're far from being the only one who's learnt the hard way.
It seems you joined up a while ago, but welcome to the Nexus all the same!
“There is a way of manipulating matter and energy so as to produce what modern scientists call 'a field of force'. The field acts on the observer and puts him in a privileged position vis-à-vis the universe. From this position he has access to the realities which are ordinarily hidden from us by time and space, matter and energy. This is what we call the Great Work."
― Jacques Bergier, quoting Fulcanelli