A word-by-word phone conversation with my gender therapist:

“There is something new. I figured out I was kidnapped when I was a child. I screamed. People came to help. Then I forgot about it.
“How does it make you feel?”
“Two years ago, my answer would have been quite different from what it is now.”
“What would it have been?”
“Why don’t you ask me what it is now? Earlier, I would have complained how lame it was from the adults to let it happen. Now I know I create my life. I create this reality. There are no external forces to blame.”
“What do you mean?”
“This life is my dream. I’m doing my best not to wake up yet.”
“Why? What happens when you wake up?”
“Everyone else disappears.”
“Sorry, but I need to ask you, have you taken drugs in the last three weeks?”
“Three weeks? I took them yesterday.”
“Wow.”
“I take mushrooms every second day, so it’s not a big surprise.”
“Why do you take mushrooms every second day?”
“Because, if I take them every day, I work little.”
“It’s not what I meant. Why don’t you take them, let’s say, every third day?”
“Why would I take them every third day if I can take them every second day?”
“Why do you need them?”
“I don’t need them. I want them. Your question is based on a false assumption. You believe they could be bad. I can tell you, if something is bad, I never want to do it. If something is good, I want to do it all the time. It’s that simple. But I also like my work.”
“I see. It’s just it’s difficult to follow when fantasy gets mixed with reality.”
“What fantasy? Wait. No. I take it back. What reality?”

I’m not sure where the therapy is heading, but it’s fun.

On my home planet, we don’t farm drugs. We produce psychedelics with our minds. Thus I still have much to learn here. Your reality offers a lot of fun.



It’s not MS. It’s MF. (Multi-functional)

Most of them were still babies. I harvested only a few.

good googly moogly they look so awesome!! I tried looking for you on shroomery but i could not find you, do you have a grow log or a link to the tek you're using that you might care to share with a novice grower, i tried monotubs once but it was a disaster, since there's a lot of spores in the air and my weather is tropical everything wants to live and thrives easily thus I had contams destroy the whole thing . I'm even considering buting a small grow tent for my upcoming endeavors.

A word-by-word phone conversation with my gender therapist:

“There is something new. I figured out I was kidnapped when I was a child. I screamed. People came to help. Then I forgot about it.
“How does it make you feel?”
“Two years ago, my answer would have been quite different from what it is now.”
“What would it have been?”
“Why don’t you ask me what it is now? Earlier, I would have complained how lame it was from the adults to let it happen. Now I know I create my life. I create this reality. There are no external forces to blame.”
“What do you mean?”
“This life is my dream. I’m doing my best not to wake up yet.”
“Why? What happens when you wake up?”
“Everyone else disappears.”
“Sorry, but I need to ask you, have you taken drugs in the last three weeks?”
“Three weeks? I took them yesterday.”
“Wow.”
“I take mushrooms every second day, so it’s not a big surprise.”
“Why do you take mushrooms every second day?”
“Because, if I take them every day, I work little.”
“It’s not what I meant. Why don’t you take them, let’s say, every third day?”
“Why would I take them every third day if I can take them every second day?”
“Why do you need them?”
“I don’t need them. I want them. Your question is based on a false assumption. You believe they could be bad. I can tell you, if something is bad, I never want to do it. If something is good, I want to do it all the time. It’s that simple. But I also like my work.”
“I see. It’s just it’s difficult to follow when fantasy gets mixed with reality.”
“What fantasy? Wait. No. I take it back. What reality?”

I’m not sure where the therapy is heading, but it’s fun.

I’m a novice too. It’s just that the Mushroom Spirit is helping me. I know it’s unfair but what could I do to such a powerful entity?

I plan to write a post on shroomery as well as here about "Ten things I wish I knew when I started growing mushrooms".

It won’t be a guide. There are many excellent guides. It will be about saving time and optimizing things.



Until that, it’s mostly photos:

https://www.shroomery.or...page=0&vc=1#26779858

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Trust me, I found my empty posts annoying too. I wish I could delete the posts and the empty thread instead of deleting the content.

I’ve been using the internet for about 25 years. Yet, the only place I did such thing as deleting the content of two dozen posts is the Nexus.

Although my empty posts annoy me too (I have five planets in the Virgo zodiac, you can imagine), I thought the reason was easy to understand.

Some of my trips were the most intimate experiences in my life. Some of them were also earth-shaking. They changed my life in almost every department.

I could talk about my sexual life easier than about some of my trips. (No, I won’t talk about the former). It took me months to get used to what I saw and thought and felt. I’m taking mushrooms every second day to understand them better. Today, I will take them.

The craziest part wasn’t that what I saw during the trips, but what happened to me in my sober times.

I asked someone whom I didn’t know, but I considered relevant after I read his article:

https://www.dailygrail.c...genic-entity-encounters/

He sent me long quotes from a book about shamanism. The quotes were about dragon-like creatures who ruled Earth. That was a period when my apartment got filled with dragon-skin patterns. I triple checked the emails I sent to Dr. Luke. I haven’t written to him about dragons at all—nothing related either.

I tried to discuss it with my friends. One friend decided to tell me a lot of things about himself that he had never told anyone as he was embarrassed about them. Since that day, he doesn’t respond to me. We were friends for ten years.

Other people told me, "you just hallucinated these". Then, after they told me in a euphemistic way "you went crazy", they started to repeat the things I told them without noticing it. They repeated the things they argued about. I didn't just imagine it happened. I have some of it in emails.

My therapist, whom I’ve been visiting for five years due to adult ADD, and whom I considered excellent - we were in a great relationship as I made one of her success stories in her professional carrier - replied to my trip experiences with words that made me consider stop visiting her.

That’s what I’m going to discuss with her in three days from now.

I also tried to contact a medical team who test mushrooms and ayahuasca in a famous hospital in my country. They didn’t respond.

If I tell you without any hesitation that I lived in a biological man body for more than three decades, and after my third or fourth truffles box, about half year ago, I went to the store, bought women clothes, and never wore men clothes again (except for shoes due to the size, and my leather jacket), and right now I am typing the answer to you in a bra with size E breast prosthesis in it, and planning to get implants that I need to organize to do only after my upcoming marriage, because, in my country, they don’t allow same-sex couples to marry, and that my avatar is my photo converted with FaceApp’s "Female Filter" (and I think it’s quite accurate), and I don’t delete this post, you may get an idea how serious the things are I don’t talk about.

The posts I deleted were related to the things I should not talk about or write about. The last thread called "Update" was the same story. I wanted to talk about them, but I believe I shouldn’t.

You can see I helped people related to therapy and meds, and I didn’t delete those.

“Do you think you might be a woman?”
“No. Not at all. I’m here as I realized I am a nymphomaniac narcissistic dragon queen who is turning herself back to her true form, and I offer you to take part in the initial steps.”

That article from David Luke is super-interesting and all those who haven't read it yet might want to consider giving it a go.