Hello lovely people
I just have to write a little thing about DMT because it put me back on the right path
a few days ago.
When i was younger i struggled with various substances and addictions.
I left that behind for years now but i started to drink more and more over the last decade.
In my youth alcohol was non existant for me but now every few weeks i drank alot.
And every time it got more and more.
I never got violent or caused any problems but it hurt my soul kinda.
Now a few weeks back i turned 40 years old and alot of old friends visited me and gave me
all kinds of presents. Mainly drugs.
So i started using them every day again and i started to drink every day too.
In that time i didn´t smoke DMT but did cocain, speed and alcohol daily.
All my progress over the last decade was out of the window.
I felt terrible and i wouldn´t even come here to get some good input.
All this time i knew that i had one of the most powerful medicines available to me.
But i was scared to smoke DMT because i didn´t follow the path it showed me.
A few days ago i did and it was the most comforting and forgiving experience of my life.
After that i got up and dumped all the bad stuff in the toilet and i feel great now.
I will never touch any of that stuff again. I know that now.
I am just not the right person to have a drink once in a while or do a little of this or that.
I feel a little stupid for relapsing but if somebody reads this: Don´t take that other stuff!!
Stick to things that are beneficial to you and have fun.
Hope this isn´t too negative but it is crazy how easy you can fall back into old habits.
This time the withdrawl was very managable.
Back in the day i needed medical help.
Thank you everybody for this forum. You helped me more then you can ever imagine.
Have a gud one everybody and thanks again for all the positive stuff here
Psychedelic drugs don´t change you, they don´t change your character,
unless you want to be changed. They enable change. They can´t impose it.
Alexander Shulgin