I drank a tea made from 4g (and change) of whole rue seeds. Lemme just say, this was probably the most gross experience with a drug I've ever had, just in terms of body load. It was incredibly nauseating just to keep my eyes open and I waa super drowsy anyways, so basically the whole trip was just lying belly-down on my bed. It felt like I was in every possible physical orientation at once and it was taking every ounce of my being not to puke. The experience was very introspective, nonetheless, and even a tiny bit visual.
Anyhow, that's mostly beside the point. After a while of just lying in bed perfectly still, my thoughts would become distant. They would begin to move someplace outside my skull, and then come on either expontentially more rapidly or more slowly, like spinning a record on a turntable with your hand. Then, just as I would be on the brink of losing consciousness, a very rapid build-up of energy... and FWAM!!! My head got lobbed off by a guillotine!
Or not, as I realized soon after I was jolted awake. This happened a second time, but it was less guillotine-ey and more touching-an-electrical-main-with-a-copper-pipe-ey.
Is this what they call a brain zap? Do people usually get zapped on rue?
I don't want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness. I want a clever signature.