I want you guys opinion on something that happned to me years ago. Please big Brothers of the Nexus, Man oh man, as I sit here I'm gripping my knees just thinking about it, Back during thanksgiving break of November 2007 I went to hang with two friends of mine, My sister had some car trouble and needed to use mine so Deion who had been my best friend for many years now and Joe who was a new friend of ours who I actually met through Deion came and picked me up from my home. We were at Deion mother house and was staying up gaming on Halo 2 which had recently came out, stuffing our faces with pizza rolls and drinking capri suns, Talking about the Ben Ownby and Shawn Hornbeck kidnappings that happened that year and other things, Before long Joe fell asleep, leaving the conversation to only me and Deion.
Before long Deion started to get sleepy too, I, Not being sleepy and not wanting to be up alone for fear of boredom and knowing Deion competitive nature, made a bet with Deion that he couldn't stay up longer than me, sadly this little manipulation would have consequences for years to come, he accepted my challenge and we both agreed to no caffeine, but any other methoday we could use to stay up. I chose to use Binaural beats, this was the start of the nightmare, Once I started to get sleepy I selected a low Beta beat to listen to because it's supposed to promote alertness and that was my goal to stay up.
The first night I was listening to it and it was not helping at all, I was getting more sleepy, This is garbage I remember thinking to myself. After a hour or so I begin to switch between different Binaural frequencies until I found one i thought sounded good, I played video games with my friends ate food and listened to the binaural tunes for three days straBeforeight.
When the fourth day came for me to go home my sister picked me up and I passed out sleep soon as got in car. Once home the horror begin it was the middle of the day and she dropped me off and left back out, My pop was at work at Printpack and I wasn't sure where my mother was at the moment so I was home alone I went upstairs and sat on the couch, needless to say the little 20 minute nap I had was useless in face of the huge sleep debt that had occurred and I was feeling very odd but also was enjoying the strange sensations I was feeling.
Their was a small hand mirror on living room table and I grabbed it and looked at myself, that was when i realized when you look extremely tired you also look extremely sad, and vice versa. I wondered if their was a deeper connection between the two or if merely the same muscle groups were shared when your one or the other, finally I pulled out my head phones and laid back and before I even had a chance to use them, I fell asleep without even realizing I had even dozed off.
What woke me up was my phone ringing, now this is very strange because as tired as I was, it seemed to me I was more aware of everything!, my senses seemed sharper, and as I sleep I heard the phone ring and ring and ring, with all my might I woke to check the missed call and didn't recognize the number, My sister came in the house then and told me she had just called me from her friends phone be ause hers was dead, to let me know she was going to leave with her friend Caitlin she put my jeep keys on table looked at me and busted out laughing she said I looked crazy, we both laughed for a minute and she left.
Now this time I grabbed my headphones plugged them in my phone amd begin to listen Binaural tones again, I kept cycling through diffrent ones, Alpha to beta, delta and so on and I fell asleep. I heard a loud knock on my back door, it was a very loud knock, very strong and rapid about five of them, and I lay there unable to move anything but my eyes, I was frozen stiff and was terrified when the knock came again this time it knocked seven times but they were way louder, and that broke me out my paralysis.
I jumped up went to back door and opened it, no one was on back porch and my heart was pounding into overdrive, I shut door and sat back down on the couch and thats when I realized the room was now purple my favorite color instead of white, I thought I might have been lucid dreaming but when I put 2 and 2 together and realized I had just woke up to answer the door THAT'S when I start feeling like a panic attack because yet I had woken up, the room was purple and before I went sleep living room walls was white!.
Scared as panic was going to set in I grabbed my phone, that's when something slammed into the door I jumped up and ran to it and flung it open and saw a old tall pale man in a black robe with long vivid silver and white hair the moment I saw him I should have been scared but I wasnt, that's when I used dream recall and realized no way in earth is this a normal person so I STILL MUST be dreaming now.
He had eyes that were different colors from one another the left was brown and the right was a pitch black and they both sat deep in his skull he had thick eyelashes really thick and long they were white at roots but turned to a brownish color towards end of tip, think like caramelized onions, he also had a very very huge forehead, he was reagal and i felt like I was front of nobility or royalty was staring at me! If I had to call it I say he look marbled at me as much as i was at him, like I was something special.
Then I heard his voice in my head, "You should not be here Carlton!"! That voice scared me down to my bones with his voice in my head sounded like water was splashing all about, and he spoke in my mind again "How did you get here!?!" He sounded sad like he was crying, then he asks me would I like to see the universe, I told him no out of pure instinct, he told me every time I close my eyes the back of what I think I'm seeing that's my eye lids is in fact the universe and my hypnagogia is the stars moons planets, that voice was something awful so I slammed door in his face and locked it.
No sooner did I grab my phone did I hear banging on all the doors and windows of the house at same time, I started
hearing the voice telling me I have no business there, I hollered back this is my home! And grabbed my keys and ran outside to my jeep where I noticed pine cones every where!.
I was grabbed from all over by these hands they felt different but same, I know these were different things grabbing me, one of them grabbed my keys out my hand and I heard the old man voice say I should not have came there again this when I noticed he was snickering not crying.
Something I couldn't see threw my keys in the woods, so I ran back in house and down to my room, and hid. The next morning guys I woke up on living room couch and was so happy to see room back normal color and my family home! I hugged all them and told them about the nightmare and they was more entertained then they were concerned, now get this and put your thinking cap on reddit, later on that day I couldn't find my keys, I looked everywhere in house my sister confirmed she put them on table and I still couldn't find them, I went outside and everything was normal, then a thought hit me like a ton of bricks, go look in woods for keys, I looked and after 15 mins I found them.
I have never listened to binaural beats since and after telling my parents what happned I even asked them take me to sheriff department so I can do polygraph, I wanted more than anything them to believe me, they reassured me they did but I just don't know.
Was that something supernatural or did I sleep walk and throw the keys in woods myself during the nighterror? These questions still bother me If I really put my mind to it, I think I had a Binaural beat induced sleep deprivation combination that created a unique form of night terror that partially overlapped into some real time, the thing that threw my keys in woods either influenced me in real life during that event, I won't say possessed because I don't know if I believe that stuff.
I will say their are some superstitions that when a person is weakened or close to death they body and mind are more easily able to be hijacked, but if my conscience is aware of that while I'm conscious then that can just mean I uploaded those entities mentally on my own and that they don't truly exist but that I created them in my mind, which means the power of imagination when in the mental plane can backfire in a stupendous manner or maybe they are real?.
I also believe that because my brain had been so stressed from sleep deprivation that when I begin using the binaural beats that promotes being alert, it allowed me to consciously go into my subconscious and from my subconscious into my Unconscious, I don't think these two are meant to be bridged, at least not in the fashion or order I did it. I understand that some people feel the subconscious and the unconscious are same, after my experience I can tell you it's not, And to clarify I'm not talking about the physical state of being Unconscious, but more so the Unconscious mind.
I'll break it down.
1.Conscious is our choices decisions and logic/Aware.
2.Sub Concious is like a built in program, it's automated in our very psyche for beneficial reasons, you could say it's our core it doesn't have to be reasoned with or considered because it's naturally for our best interest.
3.Unconscious is the black chaos because it is unregulate, anything can happen here, I say chaos because I don't believe their to be any order here, I believe it is a very dangerous, dark place mentally and our subconscious works like castle gates to block out what's going own outside our kingdom "Conscious" which is our safety grounds. This would explain why the mind is so complicated and so much of it is unused, even more ominous the Unconscious could sctually be pure external forces that seek to invade the conscious?
I feel that when something is denied consciously its acknowledged as a thought or consideration but then rejected or disagreed with by our choosing. But something that's rejected subconsciously is not even thought of, it's something so dangerous that the core, which is your subconscious mind felt is posed such a huge threat that it didn't even want the conscious mind to get a glimpse of it, and by glimpse i mean literally mean "Think"of it, Just like our bodies immune system automatically protects us from pathogens, we don't have to make our bodies do any of that, it's a automatic process that protects us and I believe the mind does things like that automatically on its own as well.
I probably manually over ride my own sub and forced some lobes that lay dormant to awake, kind of what the body does on a physical level with flight or fight when a threat pushes the body to extreme state, only I pushed my very own mental?, Whatever the case it is still the most horrific thing to happen to me, all and all I have much more pity and respect for those who have lost theyre minds, they are in they're own dimension a playground with no rules where any and everything goes, at any time. Comments are not only welcomed but greatly appreciated.