Almost a decade ago I've already introduced myself on here using another account, of which all details have been lost to history unfortunately... I can't even remember or find the account or posts I've made back then but the memory they're on here somewhere have now pulled me back to re-introduce myself.
I wasn't ready for it back then. Even though I somehow managed to acquire some using SilkRoad with some BTC mined on my old PC back then, I've never dared to actually properly use it. I still have that old, yellowy, slightly oxidated small baggy of DMT in my possession, and have ever since cherished with the respect it IMHO deserves.
Back then I've never dared to actually properly consume it, apart from vaping just the slightest amount on a bit of aluminum foil sucking from a straw to get the gist of the smell, flavor and microdose effects (<5 mg). But even these have strongly stayed with me nonetheless, and over that past decade I've had a few of these callings before, but I've dismissed them until now since 'life' got in the way.
I finally bit the proverbial bullet recently and have recently acquired myself some MHRB, enough to do a dozen small scale extractions. I've experimented with different (combined/interleaved) TEK's with mixed results, and now have a handful of different batches of product. I'm no professional chemist, but a dummy neither, so I've been trying, and taking the best of all the TEK's I've been able to find, and have extracted a few batches all from 'perfect white needles' to 'deep yellow full-spectrum sticky goo-sand-stuff', meanwhile doing some more comparitive microdoses of what I've been able to extract, comparing to 'ye olde know good', and perfecting 'my own' TEK.
All this has finally led me to do a 'proper' medium-dose introduction, using the remains of that cherished old known good product I saved from back then; how else would I know the least about what to expect from what I've managed to extract myself?
Somehow, even though I now have a proper milligram scale, I eyeballed a dose a few days ago and went for the proverbial deep end of the pool. Not the ocean yet, I wouldn't dare, but deep enough to get some real results. By weighing the remains post-experience, I estimate around 10 mg, but boy did I have an experience... I've read numerous sources stating 'if you're not sure whether you have broken through, you have not.', but for me this was a breakthrough! I just couldn't help but uncontrollably laugh from halfway through on, this was it, the rabbit hole only goes deeper from here on.
I did a dozen or two of deep breaths, saturating my body with oxygen preparing for the hold to come. Using the crude but effective aluminum-and-straw method I firstly gently melted/pre-vaporized, and held for about a minute. Nothing yet, so another round of deep breaths. A bit more heat and the next round seemed to clear the foil of everything, and I held it and sat back, eyes closed and fully concentrated on the experience hopefully following up next...
The next minute I consciously felt the dose enter me, dragging me deeper and deeper into my already fully relaxed physical state. I fell into an eerily 'familiar' state, regardless of never really doing this before... After a while I exhaled, smelling and tasting the remains of the dose on my breath, and just let go.
I've lived with some form of tinnitus for a long time now, and it seemed to get worse for a while, but something 'told me' that that's nothing bad, it felt like the often described 'carrier wave', just getting more intense! I've lost most of my bodily sensations, apart from sensing I was still breathing just fine, and slowly the CEV's started.
I don't remember most of it now, but what I've been able to take back from the experience was something like a deep neon-blue-ish 'butterfly'. As for everyone, words do not do any justice, but some form of a continuous multi-dimensional 'line' of pure blue-ish essence, overlayed on blackness, in the form of what I would call a butterfly, was floating 'above' me, and was looking over 'me', whatever 'me' was in that moment... I just enjoyed 'looking' at 'it', no questions, no answers, no nothing, just 'being', but it didn't feel like I was alone at that moment.
After 'it' left, and the darkness of my closed eyes returned, I opened my eyes but I felt like I was not done yet; it felt A LOT, really REALLY a LOT like Alex Grey's 'Godself' painting, like 'me' only being a small bubble in an ocean of a zillion other "me's", but less visual than Alex has
rendered it...
I closed my eyes again and rode out the remainder of the body high without any more visuals, as far as I can remember now that is. I haven't gone to bed so happy and relaxed in a long time after this!
I'm looking forward to further exploring what I've been able to extract myself, maybe I'll even be able to get into and swim in the ocean soon...
Namaste, love and peace to all of you, and thank you for reading!