GoneWiththeWind wrote:It's amazing how similar our experiences are. No matter where I go in hyperspace or what I see, the feeling of this cosmic joke permeates the entire experience. There is this consistent feeling of reassurance and humor, sometimes to the point that I completely lose it and laugh my guts out like a lunatic. It feels like all of existence is laughing with me.
exactly! Every single time! Every trip I was being told "you know all is a mascarade!"
Or I had this "it's a game, you're being shown the reverse of things" as in "everything is always the reverse of everything"
They're playing with me, they're like: "look here" and then, the "space" I'm suppose to look at disappears.
I remember one trip where I was shown something like the birth of galaxies, and I could hear one spirit telling the other "come one, don't be a tease, take him there or don't take him there, but don't just show him a glimpse" and they were laughing, and so was I.
It is, always, something of a play, game, joke. Very fascinating.
I met a jester that was "central" in the vision, like a tribal "chief" of everything. Very interesting feeling.
A while ago, I did some shamanistic trips (without aya or anything, just the 180bpm drums and a shaman guiding me a bit).
It was in order to find your "animal of power".
the shaman told me: people tend to think it means "the animal that represents my power", but it's most likely "the animal that represents the power you need". And mine was a little monkey – she told me its symbolic signification was the trickster.
Cause yeah: we always take things too seriously! I know I do!
it's like : even this DMT quest. We probably should be able to experience it like something that does not make sense, does not present secrets on life/universe/divinities. Everything we're shown, however divine it seems, is a joke. Maybe. I don't know! ahaha
It's a very interesting "conflict" and I'll maybe write a post about that: is there anything to "know"? some experiences say "no", some say "yes".
"How Small A Thought It Takes To Fill A Whole Life"
Wittgenstein