Hi all,
Just wanted to report a strong cactus experience. The plant was a 5 year old Trichocereus peruvianus 'Icaros DNA', a well known seedline distributed from the Matucana Valley, Peru. This report will include the info about plant, the conditions it was grown under as well as the preparation and trip. I put this post together because decent genetics are becoming more and more available but many people do not know how much to trust in the strength of homegrown cacti, especially the much doubted T. peruvianus. In a nutshell, be rest assured that you can reach immense heights of psychedelia, healing, euphoria and even the uncomfortable extremes of these states with this species if it was true to type, raised under ripe conditions and prepared properly.
The plantThis Icaros was sourced from a trusted local supplier as an approximately 10cm seedling in 2016. As a seedling it had brown spines and a decent amount of blue on it for its age. Most likely it was 1 to 1.5 years old back then and seen at least 2 growing seasons. Not the most disease resistant plant as it was covered with orange fungal spots at the base and had black rot at its collar so it had to be cut, rooted and planted again. It quickly outgrew the fungal spots with age and decreasing nitrogen application.As it aged it grew an intense, almost whitish blue epicuticular wax and spines as long as 5 cm. The mature spines had brown tips and yellow bases. Also there were usually one dominant medial spine and 5-6 shorter (around or less than 1cm in length) radial spines per areole. Rib count varies with each pup so far and ranges between 6 to 8. This particular cut was 8 ribbed at the bottom half, which gave a 6 ribbed pup after losing its tip to a snail attack. Both parts summed up to 45cm in length and were not separated until the day of preparation. The plant had a maximum diamter at around 8cm and its girth averaged around 7cm.
The growing conditionsAll plants were potted in a mix of 15 % sand, 15 % perlite and 10 % dry coco peat and 35 % sieved potting mix and 30 % soil dug up from the garden. Many people add way too much drainage material and cacti may have difficulty stabilizing themselves in pots if soil is too light or most of the nutrients can just wash through before the plant roots can absorb them. The diameter of the pots were 4 times larger than the diameter of the cacti they were going to hold since trichocereus grow a lot faster with large root space. All the cacti were exposed to full sun throughout all growth seasons and watered weekly during active growth. As soon as the growth stopped in colder months plants were witheld water until the next growing season. In this region plants can noticably grow for 8 months a year and are moved under a cover to keep them dry and dormant for the remaining 4 months. Summer temperatures average around 26 degrees, frequently going above 30 degrees Celcius, while it averages around 9-16 but never drops below 0 in winter. The altitude of this neighbourhood is 45 meters, no where near the elevation of the natural habitat of these cacti. Fertilizers were used weekly in the hottest monts and fortnightly during any other time in the growing season. All fertilizers were mixed in a 9L watering can using tap water for the final concentrations given below:
-Synthetic all purpose garden fertilizer at 1/9 strength (1gr/L) (N: P:K 25:5: 8. 8 ) + S 4.6 / Mg 0.5 / Fe 0.18 / B 0.005 / Cu 0.005 / Zn 0.004 / Mo 0.001
-Osmocote slow release all purpose fertilizers with trace elements was sprinkled onto the potting mix at half recommended dose.
-Liquid Cal/Mag (5% / 1.4% respectively) at 1 ml/L
- Trace element mixture in powder form. 25g/9L was used since the recommended dose (25g/L=225g/9L !!) seemed unrealistically high for fortnightly applications. Ingredients: (% W/W) sulphur 6.29, Ca carbonate 10.00, Mg sulphate 3.62, manganese sulphate 2.88, iron chelate 2.73, copper sulphate 1.25, zinc sulphate 1.00, boron 0.09 and molybdenum 0.09
-Liquid potash (P 2.0: K 14.0) at 20 ml/9 L
-Liquid compost mixture containing fish and seaweed solution, humate and trace elements (50ml/9L)
-Great White micorrhizae mixture in powder form (1 teaspoon/9L). These bacteria were used much less frequently, around 3 times per growing season.
-Organic phosphorus granules (N: P:K 0:12:0). This one was eyeballed unfortunately. Sprinkled over the soil sparingly each year.
Only 2 types of fungicides were used against black and orange spots with little success. Those were a solution of copper ammonium complex (93g/L) at 5ml/L and myclobutanyl at 0.05g/L.
StressingThis particular Icaros peruvianus was witheld water for 1.5 month under full sun and another 2 months under shade. Shade caused some 4cm long etiolation even though the plant was water stressed but the new growth was not drastically skinny. Then the plant was moved under full sun for a month where it received occasional rainfall and 2 applications of fertilizers. At the end of this period the 45cm long arm described above was cut. The cutting was prodded with cactus spikes and slashed vertically with a small blade to stimulate the damage done by predators and bystanding cactus columns. Then the cut was left laying on its side in a cool indoor closet for 3 weeks. If the opportunity of an empty house didn't present itself the cut would wait in the dark for at least 2 months.
PreperationThe cut weighed exactly 1000g on a kitchen scale. Unusable parts were removed and their weights were mesured with a sensitive scale:
-Dominant spines: 2.19 grams
-Areoles with radial spines and skin: 32.19 grams (turns out peruvianus skin is very thick and heavy)
-Vascular bundle and pith (the inner core): 80 grams
-Total: 114.38 grams
The remaining cortex and chlorenchyma weighed 880 grams on the kitchen scale which is apparently somewhat inaccurate. Then the chunks of cactus flesh were diced down to roughly the same size as sugar cubes and were frozen in a ziplock bag at -20 degrees Celcius overnight, until all pieces were solid. Then the frozen chunks were thrown into 4 liters of reverse osmosis water and half a lemon was squeezed into this mixture. Once the cactus pieces lost their firmness after couple of hours of boiling and the slime reduced, the chunks were blended to fine pieces. Then once the mixture was concentrated down to a sludge, it was filtered through a densely folded cheese cloth on a strainer. The same cooking procedure was repeated 3 times, except in the last 2 repeat, 2 liters of water was used to reduce the final amount. 4 liters of filtered cactus extract was boiled down to 500 mL of concentrate. At any point in preparation the green crust left at the corners of the pot was washed down with bare hands and minimal amount of water to be included in the final brew. The concentrate was kept in the fridge for a day before the experience.
The set, the setting and the tripMentally speaking, the tripper was in a comfortable place. Since it was during the quarantine period there wasn't really much to do except for sending lengthy application mails. He actually managed to get a positive response for a mail and was invited for an interview which put him into ease regarding his responsibilities. He unexpectedly managed to get a good looking girlfriend recently and this eliminated one of the major factors of self-doubt. Only glooming danger was the axniety of having a trip since he lost hearing and acquired tinnitus in left ear possibly because of a 'toxic' lophophora experience during which he also acquired TMJ.
He was alone in the house all day and he knew his flatmate would not come back until 9pm. Even if he did he would be in his room all the time so it was not a problem. Both the house and his room were tidy and clean, and the house had a large backyard with no nosy neighbours around. He had a 6 hour sleep woke up at 10:30, ate a light meal of grapes, bread and avocado, and went back to sleep. Woke up again at 1:40 and got ready for the trip.
-2:08 Chewed on a gram of fresh ginger root and downed half of the 500ml extract. Taste is very bitter and very sour probably because of one and a half lemon added during extraction. Ate a slice of orange as chaser. Been taking magnesium pills (250 mg) for the last 2 days in preparation for muscle spasms and took another one while drinking the first part.
-2:52 Already feeling the effects. Things look sharper and brighter. Getting the feeling that things would start to move around if looked at for long enough, though nothing happens yet. Music is much more enjoyable and immersive. It triggers vivid imagination but no concrete hallucinations yet. Significant nausea and stomach churning at this point. Thinking about drinking the rest or not.
-3:15 Definately receiving mild visions and weak CEVs when listening to music. With eyes open textures are fuzzy and colors are intensitifed, and both can trigger very unique and specific sensations and thoughts that are interlinked. For instance the white color of the ceiling reminds of those big white jawbreakers with blue, yellow and red splatters on them, which then evokes memories of 90s abstract art, a sense of childhood and eating vanilla ice cream.
-3:30 Decided to drink the half of the rest. Should correspond to 125 mL.
-3:42 Feeling a decent effect now. While lost in music, the sound stage feels larger and fresher. This clarity hits when the music is about to turn into CEVs. When eyes closed Incan horse-serpents(?) appear on a faint Escheresque background made of arcs and corners. These Incan creatures resembled the horror versions of Adam and Barbara Maitland from Beetlejuice but they were not scary or intimidating. Their presence felt incredibly important and mystical. 3-D patterns raising from and hovering over the ceiling surface. They are also made of arcs, corners and circles, arranged as a circle. Euphoria with a sense of love and gratitute is growing. Offered love and gratitude to the mother plant and visited it in the garden. Might have drunk the other part too early afterall since it is already on par with a good dose of acid.
-5:07 to 8:50 Stunned by the potency of this plant. Only getting higher during this bit of the trip. No coming down. Nope, just a relentless but enjoyable up. Nausea has almost completely disappeared but a very mild heartburn remains possibly because of lemon juice. Ate some grapes, the rest of the orange, some bread and cheese. Also drank some water since mescaline makes one urinate frequently. Now realizing bodyload is not just stomach feelings but a tactile component of the trip probably inherent to mescaline regardless of the extra substances introduced by the cactus. Can feel the source/ground zero of the trip, changing location in the body and evoking muscle twitches, sensations, emotions, visuals, smells and sounds as it walks within me. OEVs pop up from surfaces and the wood is melting. Colors are massively enhanced and there are rainbow hues over objects and at the corners of visual field. Anything begins to change shape when looked at for a few seconds max. Walked outside and sat on the stairs at the side of the house. The passageway opening to garden was breathing, shrinking to a hole and ballooning up to the size of a highway road. One looks like the older version of himself when looks at the mirror or at his hands. Every imperfection ,like wrinkles and eyebags , is exaggorated. CEVs take the form of storylines, factals and those patterns that are basically the colorful versions of the optical illusions made of fine black and white stripes. These alternating neon stripes sometimes form 3-D spherical, cuboid and irregular objects and turn into paradoxical geometric patterns like Escher drawings. Sometimes branching hallucination flames similar to those in the paintings of Alex Gret surround these objects. There are also runic alphabets etched around these visuals occasionally. Music directly turns into CEVs and different combinations of each aspect of sound perception, (each square that makes up the final mosaic so to say, such as timber, frequency and waveform of the sound) corresponds to a different kind of visual. For instance a pure tone was more likely to give rise to simple neon stripes or geometric shapes while complex sounds like human vocals or guitar chords showed more life-like and intricate visuals, such as a stupidly realistic piece of fabric with green,red and yellow checkers on it, much like a Scottish skirt. There were intermediates of those of course. The same thing happens to ideas, notions, historical and mythical characters or events due to the effect of music. For instance listening to Sympathy for the Devil brought the realization that The Devil should be sympathized with because it is an incarnation, a face we put on the human selfishess and the disregard we have for one another. It exists in all of us and one can only counteract this after facing it. Meanwhile, The Devil as well as the historical events the song was referring to were appearing as CEVs and they were hybridized with geometric patterns. Things quickly turned into a rapid chase of connotations and ideas. This was explaning all kinds of notions and the meanings behind various modalities of perception. After each wave the chase ended with a feeling of understanding the 'essence of all things' or 'everything there has been and will ever be'. True psychedelia indeed. The immersion and depth of this down-the-rabbit-hole period increased with time. The auditory distortions began to settle around 8pm as trailing/echoing sounds, pitch shifts and very strange manipulation of directionality. Was hearing some tunes upside down if thatt is even possible. Tinnitus was getting sneaky, jumping from left to right, changing tone and texture and sometimes even disappearing. Mescaline is more commandable at this point. One knows what he wants and can steer the trip with input he desires such as looking at something he wants and manipulating it or playing a piece of music to evoke certain themes and feelings. Though if lost in visions it was very easy to forget one's physical existance and even mental identity. Notions such as time, language and the ability to describe things disappeared occasionally.
-10:21 STILL getting higher. Drinking the second part so early was a bad call. Time goes by very fast and this also affects perception. The music sounds like it is paced up by x1.15 and the bubbles in the toilet burst much faster. OEVs are so strong that it is difficult to write with a pen. Hard to size the phone screen by touch. Gets big as a mountain and as small as a pinhead. Texting is difficult too since the keyboard shrinkgs and gets bigger visually and the letters turn into alien symbols. The harmony and feeling of complexity is crumbling. Different types of CEVs are playing on a fragmented field of vision as if the brain is glitching. Sound echoes get longer and deeper with increasing distortion. Sometimes random tunes reverberate and tinnitus is intensely present as a pure tone like the one you hear after picking an old phone. Muscle tension is very high, especially around neck and jaw area. The flow of the experience is interrupted and there is an overall lack of interest. No desire to look at something or play a particular piece of music. Wandering outside to the kitchen was very beneficial against this apathy as if with movement came another form of stimualtion that rekindled the trip. Wished very hard to be able to just wander outside but the corona restrictions does not allow that (bad timing) and cops are a bit freaky around this part of the world anyway. After returning to the room there were moments of brain zaps and this was the most annoying, frustrating and terrifying aspect of the whole experience. A strong one built up to a panic attack in 15 seconds. With no previous experience and some perseverance one can easily call for help thinking that he is having a stroke or a hear attack since there was also some pretty nasty pain and vibrations in the chest area. The chest and head sensations are most likely connected. The exact same thing had happened during a bridgesii trip 2 and a half years ago. Plus many report the two occurring at the same time. Zaps started around 9:21 and began to get less and less intense from 10 onwards. Wished the trip to end at this point but was not in despair. It was possible to stand against the trip and curb the effects by willpower, unlike with DMT which would scorch you to crisps instead. Although it felt like the resistance was building up to the zaps somehow. This was a very interesting idea though cannot be sure if the zaps were meant to happen or resistance triggered them. (EDIT: Read about a phenomenon called 'Adrenergic storm' where a sudden release of adrenaline and noradrenaline may create a hypertensive crisis. In the case of mescaline, it may act as a sympathomimetic by stimulating the alpha 1 adrenergic receptors in blood vessels and increase blood pressure. There is also a possibility of seizures occurring due to central nervous system stimulation. Natural vasodilators such as ginger and ceylon cinnamon may be used to combat hypertension while CBD might be useful against seizure-like states. Will definately look into this aspect in depth in the future posts.)
-2:21am Finally coming down a little. Sleep is nowhere near but trying to lay down since there is nothing better to do. Zaps are much less frequent now and it is still possible to have vivid visions with music. Some calmness and joy returned but there is still a lot of apathy and the harmony of the visuals is still distorted. Not able to follow through a seamless interconnected storyline. One abruptly ends into nothing and you start anew instead of immediately picking up the trails of the last vision.
-4:14-5:16 Might have had the shallowest sleep ever. Not sure. Regardlessly the last hour was gone in a snap. Still tripping with half the peak intensity and feeling drained. Zaps are gone and muscle aches are now quite obvious. Tinnitus is the biggest problem at this point because it does not back down. Had managed to get it down to a tiny hiss before this experience. Do not want to lose that progress after couple of years of effort.
-10:46am Woke up feeling quite well actually. Emotionally feeling quite refreshed and has a feeling that the inner self is not damaged but actually healed by this experience. Reminesced the beginning of trip with fondness and a sense of joy. The afterglow feels a lot like an antidepressant with added benefits of sharpness in mind. Retrieving memories and forming more complex sentences were definately easier though jumbled words and letters occasionally. Also there was a slight loss of focus. Was getting distracted easily.
-12:41am (NEXT DAY) After doing some pilates exercises and stretches targeting the neck and back muscles tinnitus was gone below the baseline! It was likely the tension built up by the neck muscles that made it worse. Will see if this gets better or worse in the following days. Still feelig in awe with all the beauty the trip unveiled. Keept thinking that shamans actually knew about the use of mescaline and other psychedelics as editing tools of neural connectivity, and they developed an oral record to use it to achieve consistent results. They probably tuned peoples brains during a state of trance where the user could reflect back on his mental and perceptual constitutents and somehow correct the malfunctioning aspects by being able to realize what those mean to him and find a subjective reason for this incorrect reaction of the brain. Sleep came reasonably late after 2 hours in bed but had a deep refreshing sleep with crazy dreams.
Overall, this was probably the most intense and euphoric experience when compared to all previous pachanoi and bridgesii trips. Possibly too much was consumed due to bad judgement and redosing way earlier. Shouldda remembered good mescaline comes on late and strong. Was expecting the entire 1 kg cut to yield a relatively easy going experience. Some people who work with their own homegrown Icaros suggest that 1400g is a good dose. If an equivalent amount of this plant was consumed it could easily send someone to the ER. Even at 750g it basically kikcs your nuts off. 400-500g was probably the dose for a standard trip with this particular specimen. Therefore it would be wise to approach the true perivianus type with care. These are the plants with deep blue skin, large areoles, long brown/red spines with ,sometimes, yellow bases and are a lot thicker when compared to most pachanoi and almost all bridgesii out there. When grown under full sun, fed a good spectrum of fertilizer and stressed adequately this type will blow the top of your head off with a trip full of love and joy. Do not listen to the bridgesii fanatics out there. True bridgesii might be much more consistent in potency when compared to all those other plants who are wrongfully sold as peruvianus and true pachanoi, but if you are starting your own garden and have access to some known, decent genetics, a peruvianus grown and prepared adequately will give you a much more healing and affectionate experience.
All the best and stay safe
P.S. This is my first post so if there is anything I should reword or not say just let me know.
The fool who picked this pen will always be wiser than the fool who dropped it.
-Excrept from Chasing Shadows