Hey guys, thanks for reading this. I am a long time pyschonaut, I've studied everything I can from Shulgin, the McKenna brothers, Strassman and more. I have had many DMT, LSD, and Psilocybe cubensis trips over the years. But 5 years ago, I had my last DMT trip, I know most of us have a bad trip occasionally. I've always handled them before, until this time. I love DMT and I respect the power it has, I always brace myself before breaking into that dimension, Set and Setting.
On that day I was smoking using a Vapor Genie, I put in 60mg white/yellow DMT and hit it as always. This time I fell back on my bed, opened my eyes and my room was all black and white, no color. This freaked me out because this has never happened before. After 1 minute color comes back, saturating extreme rainbow, 10 minutes later the trip is over.
The next day I was ready to try to go back in, I take the first hit and start to hear the ring, the carrier wave that takes us to the other side. I'm a little nervous after what happened last night and don't go through with it after that hit.
The ringing stayed, all night.. I woke up the next day, it's still there. That night, at 10pm my head is zapped like I was electrocuted. It happened a few times that night, I go to sleep and as I fall asleep deeper, it happens, HARD, brain zaps for 1-2 minutes at a time. It happened every day for a week, then every couple days for a few months, then by a year later happens every couple months. It always happens during my sleep. I'm in a dream and feel a nightmare coming on and it happens or I have a out of body experience, lucid nightmare, and I wake up.
I have always passed it up to HPPD or PTSD from that day, but it's been 5 years and I still hear that carrier wave tone, a permanent tinnitus, very stressful to me. Last night I stayed up the night before, when I fell asleep I woke up with my heart pounding and gasping for breath. "I always have some kind of attack now if I don't sleep the night before"
I've never had any problems before that day, I know this is not related to any other medical issues with myself, this was a definite result of that last DMT hit
Now when I smoke what use to be a normal amount of marijuana for me, or I eat just a small amount of edible, it causes me to go into convulsions, shaking uncontrollably. I really want to trip again, I have not used DMT, LSD, or Mushrooms since then. I am just scared that I could make this worse. Then again, maybe I would trip myself right again like a re-boot?
I really want to visit that dimension again, I miss those freaky funny machine elves lol. But I am scared trying to smoke it again, for my brains physical safety, as if doing it again would kick off a stroke or something. I understand DMT is natural in our brain, but it has given me these extremely negative effects. DMT can really kick your ass if you do too much, which apparently I did.
DMT is structurally similar to melatonin and released when we dream, which makes sense that it's during my sleep and dreams that this happens. Also DMT is connected to the nervous system, which also explains my convulsions when using marijuana, I feel like a flipped a switch in my brain and I gotta reset it lol.
I think I might have to give in and go see a neurologist, hopefully I didn't give myself some kind of brain damage. I would really appreciate to hear if anyone has ever heard of something like this happening before.