Life started to make so much sense for me after I’ve started taking psychedelics. They have revealed to me a path of spiritual transformation of which I was completely unaware before. In a relatively short period of time, life has become of great quality, I am genuinely happy, relaxed, relationships are smooth and loving and I’m endlessly and continuously fascinated about the wonders of the universe and consciousness. I am not in a hurry anymore and enjoy the present more fully.

Smoking high doses of cannabis in silent darkness (Some advice I followed from Terence McKenna) has made me aware of the incredible amount of unnecessary tension I’ve put in my body by suppressing emotions all my life (I am 25 now). I was so high, that it actually HURT to have so much spirit energy rushing up in such a tense body. It wanted to EXPRESS and go OUT, but it couldn’t, and it hurt like hell, I just couldn’t find comfort for 2 hours straight. This made me wonder how I could change it. Psychedelics like shrooms and DMT have shown me what it’s like to live without this tension, like a sneak peek into ‘enlightenment’ I suppose. It made me realize life can be so peaceful if you just learn to relax.

One day, after a lecture by Michael Singer, I was trying to find out ‘how relaxed could I get?’ I tried not to stop after some tension went away, but go way beyond that. I found out that there seems to be no limit at all! The heart and solar plexus seem to be infinitely expandable and it started to feel more blissful by the day.

Although the psychedelic experiences are in itself purging and healing and with lasting positive effects, they motivate me in what is accomplishable without drugs. Pranayama (breathing exercises), deep meditation and yoga seem to be systematic methods to release the tension into ever-increasing relaxation. This allows me to love myself, love my girlfriend, love my friends, my family, and the world more than ever before. It allows me to be grounded firmly and give more.

Life is infinitely better if you’re not in fight / flight mode all the time. I wasn’t even aware of being in this mode (although sometimes I was quite anxious), but now that I am more relaxed, I notice the difference and that I was there for quite some time. I found out there is so much joy to be found in the body, like an inner treasure. A constant buzzing pleasant feeling, that tells you life is amazing. I sleep better, I enjoy meditation a lot now. Sometimes, I am laying for hours on my lazy couch just bathing in bliss. I couldn’t have imagined being in this state one year ago, and psychedelics get all the credits that I know these kinds of states even exist.

Lately, I found out that I was unconsciously slightly hyperventilating (breathing too fast, which depletes oxygen in the body because of the so-called ‘Bohr effect’) which was reversing the relaxation and adding tension. I probably breathed like this all my life since I was in high school. By breathing slowly and more conscious, I reversed the process and put my body into ‘healing mode’, or homeostasis most of the time. I feel the tension in my diaphragm / solar plexus dissolving while just witnessing my breath.

I gratefully thank the sacred plants and our ancestors for healing me, giving me life-changing insights and opening my chakras. This is the most wonderful process I have ever witnessed. It’s just ecstatic!

My favorite books that have changed my life:
- The Untethered Soul by Michael Singer (And his ‘Living life from a place of Surrender’ course)
- The Sedona Method by Hale Dwoskin (And their course, and the lectures of Lester Levenson on Youtube)
- Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda
- Advanced Yoga Practices by Yogani (Free lessons on aypsite.org, the most practical information on yoga I have ever seen, such a treasure)
- Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu
- Several books by Steve Andreas and a course on NLP
- Lectures by Terence McKenna on Youtube
- The Bhagavad Gita and Food of the Gods by Terence McKenna are soon to be added to this list.

I’ve found yogic philosophy and practice to be a great companion with psychedelics, as these both seem to loosen up the grip of the ego and work towards realizing your Self, identifying with pure witness soul consciousness instead of with the ego.

In my experience, there seem to be countless ‘stored’ attachments and aversions in the body. In yoga, they are called ‘samskaras’, which are ‘energy balls’ of tension that concentrate especially around chakras as a result of not processing emotions properly. I think you can relax all these little energy balls by:

- Letting go of wanting to control the world and your experience
- Letting go of wanting approval (love from other people)
- Letting go of wanting to be a separate identity
- And by finally letting go of the deep-rooted, invisible fear of dying



This way you completely deplete the ego from its power over your life and live on in eternal love, peace, and unity. I think ‘letting go’ means confronting the fear (manifested as tension) and relax it, let it dissolve, instead of looking the other way, letting it sit there and letting it run your life unconsciously. 



People, seriously, what is a better way of learning to let go of this unconscious fear of dying than by actually ‘dying’ in a psychedelic experience? I feel thrilled and blessed. This brought me to the Nexus. Are DMT (and other psychedelics) the ultimate sacraments for getting familiar with that there is absolutely nothing to fear, cause we are just a drop of consciousness in the flux of an eternal sea of divine love?

What do you think?
Any other Nexus members into AYP?

I couldn’t be more grateful to my group of best friends, who also love to experiment with DMT and other psychedelics and talk endlessly about the mysticism of consciousness and nature. Such a warm and loving environment is just perfect for deep exploration and infinite fascination. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

God bless you all, I am honored to be part of the community and would love to participate in discussions and hear about your experiences. I believe, together, we can raise the vibration on this planet.

‘SpiceDisciple’

As I delve more into psychedlics as healers, I have been experiencing similar feelings and have been seeing gradual improvements in my life. Not just through the psychedelic experience but how I get through day-to-day life. I don't feel like I have to chase happiness, per se, as I have understood that it is a temporary emotion and feeling happy all the time isn't what I seek. It's feeling good about all the emotions I feel. In turn, my quality of life has improved and I look forward to continuing on that path.


I struggled so similarly but now I wish I had attempted McKenna's advice before what I plan to be an indefinite T-break while I explore DMT more fully. I don't want to dull the experience with cannabis. I want my full attention on this incredible molecule. I plan to bring cannabis back into my life, but not as a crutch, more so as a supplement.


Amen. I've been dabbling in psychedelics for almost 25 years - it's funny because I know that makes me appear old to some of you but I feel (mentally and physically) rather young. However, for the vast majority of time, it was used for the high, but I always recognized some form of cognitive benefit. The last few years, and especially more recently than that, I have transitioned to psychedelics for the mental and spiritual benefit.


My experience with psychedelics as of late is that I now recognize they don't necessarily "make" me better, it's more that they open the door to healing and allow me walk through. I'm happy to hear that your experiences, although a bit different from mine, have played their part in healing you.


Great, now I have more knowledge and insight on my plate to read and consume


This. Hit. Home.


My good friends are not into psychedelics despite me floating the idea of it, unfortunately. At least they are open-minded, well, to my good friends that I've discussed my endeavors with. The few that still actually consume psychedelics are in it for the high - a work in progress towards me assisting them in using the compounds as a life-enhancer, not a high-enhancer.


Eloquently said.

This must be one of the best introduction essays I've read. Not that I've been reading them for years or anything - I'm still a New Member but have been lurking for a while. You are so insightful into who you are and how you've found enlightenment with these magnificent compounds. Thank you for sharing this. I found it so cathartic to read and reply to you.

*Edit to add a reply that I thought I had included / corrected formatting.

So true! Its so amazing♡♡♡

@FranLover It surely is! ❤️❤️

@unlocked_doors Thank you so much for your elaborate answer. Let me dive in and answer you:


That’s awesome! I believe it is indeed about relaxing the resistance to ‘what is’. If you don’t have resistance, emotions are not suppressed, and they can move right through without creating tension in the body. You just witness the entire show without attachments or aversions, neither clinging to things or pushing things away, so energy can move freely and you will feel freer. I think you will love ‘The Untethered Soul’, where the author talks very deeply about this subject. It is actually the main topic of the book.

I believe all clinging and resistance are internal tensions that can be relaxed, and spiritual growth is measured in the degree in which you are able to relax this deeply hidden tension. I think DMT and other psychedelics make the tension ‘unhidden’.


DMT does the job even better I think!


That’s amazing to hear. It’s all about how you feel. I too used to use drugs purely recreationally, but after reading The Psychedelic Experience by Timothy Leary and Ram Dass about 1.5 years ago I learned that there is a spiritual significance to it all. Such a perfect combo.


I agree. I think the process is unique for everyone because all psyches are unique (‘Infinitely more unique than everybody’s unique fingerprint’, Michael Singer said in one of his lectures). In my experience, psychedelic experiences make me conscious of where exactly I can relax more in my body. I believe some form of stored tension (mostly in the heart and solar plexus area) is at the root of all suffering, and DMT seems to get me to the root, locate it, invite it up. Now I know where the tension is. Some of the relaxation happens during the experience for me, but most with the integration afterward. Especially sharing the experience on this forum and talking about it with other likeminded people, seems like integration on steroids. Typing this essay, reading your reply and replying back provides so much insight already for my own process.

Then, in my experience, you practice focused relaxation in your solar plexus and heart because you know where to relax, you learn to let go, and suddenly the benefits of living with less ego start to show and you notice: WTF! I’m changed! I don’t care anymore where I used to be so tight. Everything is so calm and relaxed where I used to be quite agitated. Anxiety? GONE! No need to protect the ego anymore. To witness the change from contraction into relaxation, openness and expansion in multiple areas of your life gives such a FREE feeling. No numbing symptoms, the problem is cured by the root, forever. Thank you, DMT.


I believe wanting control is just a feeling, tension, in the body. Which can be released, like all feelings. (The Sedona Method goes really deep on this one, they have literally an entire section in the course which is about Letting Go of Wanting Control but practically all meditation methods would do the same) I think it is really all about relaxation. Doing nothing. Wu Wei: “Do nothing, and everything is done.” When you stop pushing feelings down (suppressing), they can come up and go out, because that’s what it’s doing automatically. I also highly recommend listening to lectures from Lester Levenson. This man speaks such clear and easy language on the topic.


I think that it is not for everybody, some people are not interested in this material, and you have to be kind of careful who you introduce. However, I think all they need is one good insightful trip and they are turned on!

It has to be really easily accessible: My best friend made an e-smoker with DMT in it so it looked really innocent and you can take a really small toke to try it. He even convinced his dad to try it, lol. It was pretty easy: All he said is that he’s walking around with a big smile all day since he smoked the DMT. Other friends saw the e-smoker and us talking SO enthusiastically about it wanted to try it and many of them liked it. They have to show the interest themselves though.

We were once discussing this, that what helped was that we were with 2 in the beginning instead of one person. It felt like we were a kind of force together that is more powerful than one person preaching. So if you can convince one person, you can convince the rest of the benefits with the two of you. But I think the best trick to get anybody interested is by becoming a living example of that psychedelics are a miracle by becoming so chill to anybody because of your smaller ego.


That’s very noble of you. I think tripping together and talking about life and literature helps a lot.


Thank you for these kind words and I also loved reading and replying to your perspective. I loved to take the time for this. So CATHARGIC indeed, for me too! I feel so much lighter and more understanding after writing it.

I didn’t expect someone to reply so elaborately on my essay Thank you so much!!!

Writing and discussing this matter takes things to the next level. I think the value is in that it lets you think deeply about how you would like to explain your experience as clear as possible, which deepens understanding. I believe it is SO ESSENTIAL for integration to share your experience and talk about your perspectives and feelings. This is where it starts to make impact on your life.