Hello to everyone reading!

Well, where to begin? I am obviously new to the site, however it is not completwly new to me. As an outsider, I've been browsing what I could see of this site for over a year now. I dont have any psychedelic experience, unless you're counting marijuana. On high doses of Marijuana, I have had a few low-grade visuals and the feeling of connectedness.

It was strange because as I was looking around my room, I felt I could see every little atom of everything in site. This included the grain of the wood, the fabrics of the carpet, and the texture of the ceiling. Every atom had a consciousness and directly interacted with me and everything else around it and was visually magnified. The effect was almost like the ants from the Movie "A Bugs Life" took that rain drop and used it as a magnifying glass. Eventually everything seemed to explode as if the atoms were acting as a field of butterflies and have now taken off and left nothing but blackness. Which was then producing some low-grade, very dim patterns. This was not unlike patterns of what to expect on a low-dose DMT trip.

I would have been able to shake it off if I wanted to and be back in my room. What I really wanted at this point was to press on and go as deep as I could. I had never had a psychedelic experience, and this was providing something that I would describe as similar enough. Unfortunately, the effects were short lived, I found myself out of breathe due to the fact that I stopped breathing on my own. I was starting to fall into an ego death state, but as I hadn't taken a breathe for over a minute according to someone with me at the time, they figured it was time to make sure I could breathe. Figured that for me this particular practice could become dangerous if I don't follow a set of rules I set up for myself.

From that day on really, I knew I had to try something big. Anything Psychedelic would have been good enough to try at the time. I was concerned about this sudden level of excitement at the time and figured I had to put the brakes on. I hadn't done any research, or talk to anyone else about it, but I was ready to jump in right away? Because of my trip from before as we as a few other similar experiences, I am starting to feel fairly confident about my next step. I feel just confident enough to experience what the universe has to show me and fairly committed to do so even with bad trips in tow.

I already hold the belief of what there is to learn as I have heard through my research, and viewing trip reports. I don't know everything about it, but it feels so right even without fully experiencing the trip.

So ultimately, I am ready to learn about the beautiful reality of what may be out there. I also want to do it right, and safely. Before I can do that, I still want to do some more research and talk to people about their experiences so I can fully understand what I'm getting myself into. That's probably the main reason for joining the site, i want to be able to make sure that what I am doing is safe, and worth the time and effort. I also want to be able to talk openly about my experiences and know that someone else understands because they've been there before.

I look forward to being able to share my experiences, and get different point of views to really truly learn from them.

Thanks for taking the time to read.