I merely wish to honor the sacredness of my journey with this incredibly transformative plant. I realize now that no words will truly bring my experience to full life but if it may serve as a way for others to understand the marvel, wonder and healing which can be ignited for the brave soul willing to work with this frequency and wisdom then I have succeeded with my intention.

First, I am honored and blessed to know a good friend who was with me and walked me through what I needed to understand before my journey. This served as a comfort in exploring the vast unknown within my own consciousness. Second, the initial 'pulling in' to such a state is quite dramatic to say the least and there is a long moment of fear which seems to arise from a sense of death or dying. There is no need to panic for, "This too shall pass."

As a regular meditator for over 10 years, I have had many experiences of death and I have travelled and had many mystical visions as a result of being spiritually awakened (shaktipat) by a Yoga Master, Gurumayi. However, this particular journey was one of the most profound experiences of my life. It was as if I was being shown the nature of creation itself all made from the same 'gobbledegook' or consciousness and as quickly as I was deep in the experience of the myriad of forms, geometric brilliance and manifestations I rapidly became aware of myself witnessing it all and even the witness state was stripped away and I was left with nothing, no anchor. This can be quite scary and terrifying to plunge into nothingness and I cannot lie and say that I had no fear.

The truth is that in the Buddhist philosophy, fearlessness is not the absence of fear but simply learning to work with the energy of fear and not become trapped or stuck in it. Ultimately, I felt as if my mind was being shattered into a thousand tiny fragments and put back together again. As radical as this seems to one who has not had such an experience it was all done with a lighthearted playfulness and love. It was as if Universal mind had entered into my being and showed me how it all is just a play of energy for the delight and wonderment of the One as if to reveal that nothing too serious is going on. I had moments of feeling a bit lost and way deep in the rabbit hole but the spirit of this plant seems to take one as far as he/she may go only. This plant deserves great respect and is worthy of greater research and understanding, however, not to be taken lightly or used for any type of recreational purpose whatsoever. There is wisdom to be gained by those who are willing to let go...

Blessings and Love,

grave digger

"fearlessness is not the absence of fear but simply learning to work with the energy of fear and not become trapped or stuck in it."

Beautiful..well said. Great report and welcome aboard!

i am honored to be the one to introduce you my brother. you are a wise soul and your time for this work is now. sharing that experience with you and being there for you to volley all of the "impossibleness" with after the fact....this is something i feel called to do. you are a part of a great family now...we have all touched the inexpressible and NEED a community to share in this new conscious awakening. imagine seeing what you just saw and having NO ONE to share it with (who wouldn't look at you like you were crazy...).

you are a truly gifted writer, 'digger.....i look forward to many reports of love and expansion...we all are...

MUCH LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!

welcome to the Nexus
We are all glad to have you here.
Thank you much for the write up.

grave digger - Uh, were you reading my mind? No kidding was I just tonight thinking to myself. "I'd really like to get the perspective of someone highly experienced in meditation, on the DMT experience". I've dabbled in meditation myself, but by no means do I consider myself well-practiced at any advanced level meditation techniques. I would love to hear more about the differences and similarities between a spice journey and a deep meditative state. I'm also very anxious to hear if / how your experiences with the spice will effect your future meditation experiences.

Early on in my spice travels, amidst a journey, I was once told, "Thank this molecule for showing you, but also understand that there are other ways of getting here". It inspired me to further explore the practices of deep meditation, but I have so much to learn.

Welcome aboard and I really look forward to more incredible reports from you! Thank you for sharing brother!

Peace,
-idt