Hi,
Recently after SWIM's repeated journeys for the last two weeks, I've noticed that sometimes when I'm alone in my room I sometimes get a feeling that I'm going to hyperspace. My dreams also have a more visionary alex-gray aspect to it. My body feels these vibrations and I hear these distinct buzzing noise in the background. The more I try to remember my journeys, this buzzing becomes louder and I have a sense I am shooting for hyperspace. For example, I woke up today morning looking at the sunlight coming from the windows and they had an unmistakeable DMT feel to it. The room was sparkling in an ethereal way and I was seeing patterns and colors that were definitely not normal. It was extremely beautiful but I was alarmed by it as I thought that I was losing my mind.

Does this happen to any of you? Is this normal and just a phase everyone goes through? Perhaps it's the subconcsious trying to integrate the DMT experience with the normal world. Or perhaps it's just that deep sleep releases DMT in your brain and in the morning hours there is still some residual endogenous DMT in the brain? Perhaps it is the environmental cue of my room that triggers this response as my room is where SWIM blasts off. Another possibility I have thought is that I am simply not mentally strong enough, and should lay off spice for a while. I'm not really sure and for the first time in my life, I find myself trying not to spend time alone as this sort of makes me anxious.
Your inputs would be much appreciated.

That sounds like the most likely explanation to me. Your consciousness is changing from sleep to wakefulness, and you are seeing the same scenes as when your consciousness changes from hyperspace to wakefulness.

elphologist

This never happened to dreamer. He only smoked once or twice a week. He does get a rush of love and excitement if he thinks about DMT, but that's it.

Thanks, it makes sense now. Now when I get these vision, I remind myself of the reason for it and it doesn't make me anxious anymore.

I find that I have a vaguely similar experience, except that it happens when I'm half awake/half asleep. I find that in that twilight sort of state, everything just seems unbelieveable surreal, and the lines of reality blur. Maybe it's just a result of the tiredness, but prior to having done pharma, I've never experienced anything quite like it before. And this isn't the night immediately having done pharma, but a few nights later. I find myself wondering if DMT lingers in the system longer than we realize...

When I wake up during the night when the room is pitch black, I'm often tripping, but to a very low level, subtle degree...all the time. This happened just last night. Due to some kind of chemical changes in the brain at night, may be melatonin is involved I don't know. But I do remember one time waking up and experiencing visions for a few seconds, having returned from Peru and having drunk ayahuasca there. And yes after pharma I've had DMT style trips, or something similar, when half awake/half asleep.

Personally though, none of this is negative in anyway. I remember being amazed and awed waking up and experienced those ayahuasca visions.

arvind

I wouldn't be too concerned. It's been a couple of weeks now since I last journeyed and yet as I type this I am sensing hyperspace. There are many perceptual changes which persist;

There is a deeper significance/meaning to common physical objects.

Objects have an ephemeral softness to their visual appearance. There is the hint of tracers and 'self-contained' movement.

As Origami Existence points out- the 'twilight zone' between waking and sleep can be a very sensitive state. (best time to attempt tuning one's guitar etc).

I also agree with elphologist1 - you are correct in feeling that the environmental cues of your launchpad are conducive to what has been called 'bleed-through' or 'seepage' from the other side. I'm currently looking around the same room and it can really never be the same room again.

I think that it's significant that you feel this when you're alone. Naturally, we relate strongly to other people and their presence will occupy our consciousness. When alone, consciousness can explore other, more subtle issues such as the possibility that its contents are actually emanating from a much deeper place. You have seen something of this 'direction/dimension' and it cannot now be unseen.


IMHO this is the least likely explanation.

Also it is potentially the most dangerous. What you are describing seems quite normal, easily manageable and most likely transient. The danger is your anxiety itself. Remember that you are mentally strong enough to handle anything in your life. Anything. You may wish to walk away from this substance should you feel that it's a little too much on your plate at the moment. I may walk away myself next week ... or I may not.

If you're still worried then here's a link to some scary stuff
HPPD


Bancopuma wrote:


That rings a bell with me too Bancopuma.

20 years ago I worked permanent night shifts, 84 hour weeks, alone, as a security guard for several years (don't ask!). At that time I knew nothing of melatonin or the sleep process but I was well aware that there was a definite tipping point around midnight where things would become different. I was writing at the time and I knew from experience that there was a window of time where an almost trance-like creativity could occur. Much emotion, otherworldliness and magic would charge the air. During those long, silent years I came to feel a connection with the creatures of the night. I learnt that the night has its own vibe. Something of the primeval wilderness still permeates the world when man is asleep. Being awake all night, every night gave one a subtle but unmistakable sense of something other.

^^Haha well I've kindve always been somewhat a creature of the night myself...a mysterious time. I mean daytime has its perks too, lol, but nightime is so distinctly different and other...

Thanks a lot for the link, I think it hits right on the mark. SWIM will lay off spice for a short time, or perhaps choose to blast-off in a forest with his buddy instead of his room

Martin Ball reports similar experiences, and I think Terrence McKenna did, too.

My theory is that as the barriers between what is real and what is not real are broken down, the universe of possibilities opens up even when we're not high.

Backing off a bit probably would help. You've taken the red pill, and there's no going back

peace
Phaedris