Hey everyone,
So I keep posting about my journey โ it feels like this is what I'm supposed to do here : share and learn (and maybe share if I ever get to the position where I would have learned by myself).
This time, I wanted to take it up a notch, so I went for 30mg.
I have a tough time describing what happened. But I'm gonna bet this is very familiar to a lot of you!
Basically, my mind just froze. In french, the expression would be "scotché". It's like "taped". Static. A little voice in my head said "woaw/wtf is happening/it's scary/but it's cool right?/yeah but it's scary/my whole body feels trapped/my head is gonna explode/not really you know".
I guess, now that I think of it, it kinda was the (very very) beginning of a tunnel. Maybe, in a way, I was getting sucked into it but stayed outside. Because there was something "round" about it. Also, all around the "circular but invisible shape that I felt", there were tiny tiny geometrical shapes. Like little squares I guess, I couldn't see them well.
But mostly, it was like my mind stopped/froze. I didn't know how it felt (good or bad) but I knew I was done for the night. I'll try 40 next time, probably. I got a bit scared but feel good about it now.
Damn! What an adventure!
if anyone wishes to enlighten me, I'll be glad : )
thanks to all of you anyway !
edit : I think I had the feeling that I was "somewhere else" even though I could still recognize my room. Now I kinda feel like I've been some place.
"How Small A Thought It Takes To Fill A Whole Life"
Wittgenstein