I have been working my way up extrememly high doses of DMT over the past year. (Insufflated, as I just can't get the smoking methods to work out.) And after a point I have began to notice that I can have a second breakthrough, so to speak. (This is what I mean when I refer to a "second plateu"
. The first breakthrough for me is typical to what people describe it as, with the entities and complex geometry and whatnot. But after a certain point I "go beyond" even that, and break through that area into another. On the second level all of the geometry simplifies and there are no entities or beings. Just walls and walls of fast moving, simple 2d geometry. The colours also simplify over there, There aren't more than 2 or 3 at any given time. The most complex geometry over there are corners and shapes that appear both concave and convex at the same time (4d if you will) but I never experience those for very long.
But the real defining feature of that area in the DMTverse to me is the intensity of feelings and emotions. I will either feel the most profound joy, the most intense existential confusion or the most primal, horrid gut wrenching fear. Sometimes multiple. If you aren't ready to let go this place will brutalize you. For example I remember one particular incident where that reality was trying to convince me that I had died, but I refused to listen. I spent an eternity swimming in a sea of simple geometry muttering
"I am a person that exists". All the while I began to forget more and more about existence. I eventually forgot everything about existence after I admitted to myself
"I am dead". Then suddenly all the geometry disappeared around me and I was consumed by the void of nothingness for another eternity, and just as I was about to become one with the void I was pulled right out kicking and screaming like a newborn. Recall I had forgotten everything about existence, so when I came back naturally I was terrified of all the new things around me. It took me a while to remeber all of it again, it came back to me slowly. Now I have an idea of what it must be like coming into the world as a baby. It was a bad trip in every sense of the word. But I managed to intergrate it at very least.
This quote makes so much sense now
Quote:"In a 1975 book, Grof suggested that painful and difficult experiences during a trip could be a result of the mind reliving experiences associated with birth, and that experiences of imprisonment, eschatological terror, or suffering far beyond anything imaginable in a normal state, if seen through to conclusion, often resolve into emotional, intellectual and spiritual breakthroughs. From this perspective, Grof suggests that interrupting a bad trip, while initially seen as beneficial, could potentially trap the tripper in unresolved psychological states. Grof also suggests that many cathartic experiences within psychedelic states, while not necessarily crises, may be the effects of consciousness entering a perinatal space"
CAUTION: I strongly advise against these dosages. I have a gasket loose in my head but even so, I don't ever see myself going back to this place. It is too risky in so many ways. My stupidity should not be yours. Unless you can look at yourself in the mirror and honestly say "I am ready for the worst fear, grief, anxiety and misery I have ever experienced." Don't do dosages over 300mg. (Hell even if you think you are, you probably aren't.)
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