It's been a long time since i've posted here. So hello friends old and new.
I hope this journey of life is treating you well and you are enjoying your travels!
Having now dabbled extensively in Ayahuasca, DMT and magic mushrooms I have a thought(s) in my mind which I wanted to share out loud with all of you here and see how it resonates. Please bear with me whilst I try and articulate
In an Ayahuasca ceremony (years ago) I had an spiritual "awakening" so to speak. The truths and understandings which were smouldering within me burst into flames and a passionate roaring fire was lit.
This fire raged for a time. And is now smouldering again, a little brighter and stronger than before and I feel it will stay this way, because one cannot un-see that which has been seen.
I have done ayahuasca and DMT numerous times since. I have learnt many lessons and processed many thoughts and beliefs; the fire has at timed burned a little brighter but never an explosion as before.
I have cultivated hundreds of grams of mushrooms and have done as much as 7 grams dry over an evening. Mushrooms (sometimes) leave me with a fantastic feeling of connection to nature. A respect for the inter-connectedness of all things. It's beautiful. But I've never had an "awakening".
So I'm wondering, was the awakening a one time thing? I use my analogy of fire above because hopefully the analogy explains my meaning better than my words.
Has anyone here had the passionate fire of peace, love, understanding, harmony & contentment re-ignited after being lit a first time? If so how, or perhaps why?
Or do others shame a similar experience of having a revelatory life changing experience for one time only?
Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts.