I have an interesting story to share. Long, long time ago, I think it was in 2003, when I was young and not so smart, I was experimenting with research chemicals. One day I accidentally heavily overdosed on a dissociative drug (DXM). I've read that there was a lethal case after ingesting 2 grams of it and this is the amount that I've taken by a mistake because I didn't have electronic scales.

Just in 1 hour into the trip the world collapsed.

I won't describe the trip - it was totally out of this world, but this post is not a trip report.

What's interesting is that in about 2 hours into the trip (2 hours of violent vomiting) my body said "it's enough" and just shut down. The trip suddenly ended.

The very next moment I found myself in total silence, in the middle of nothing in total darkness, where time does not exist, sound does not exist, nothing exists anymore. I was shocked that the place where I appeared was somehow "more real" than our world. Maybe because of the lack of constant brain noise. My perception was very sharp and quiet.

I was standing at the edge of a large green-glowing circle, among 5 creatures - all of them were also standing in the circle with me. I didn't see their faces. They were quiet.

Suddenly I realized that I felt something new. Something what I had never experienced in my life before. I couldn't understand what it is - imagine that you never experienced smells and then you suddenly start sensing them. A new feeling explodes your perception and you are trying to capture its essence. I felt it in my "stomach" even though I had no stomach over there.

And then it suddenly hit me like a lightning bolt - THIS FEELING ARE THOUGHTS OF THESE BEINGS AROUND ME. I felt and knew all they were thinking and feeling about me. It shook me to the core. I couldn't believe it. I started "unfolding" that invisible ball of thoughts to see the details. My God...

It was OVERWHELMING LOVE. It was so crystallized, so clean and so profound. So sincere. So selfless. That love had a very strong "cold" feeling. Not warm or euphoric at all. They projected love into me. The flow of love was so strong that I felt it like a cold wind blowing through my soul.

I saw that they were devoted to me. Each one of them. There was nothing more significant for them than my well-being. They didn't want anything in return. I saw that their devotion is so profound that if it had required to stop their existence right now for my well-being - they would have done that the same moment without thinking. I couldn't understand what I did to deserve this. I'm just a young guy. Why am I so important for them.

I continued "unpacking" and saw that they are also very much disturbed that I'm among them in that circle. My time had not come and I should not be there. They started doing something and my perception became blurred.

The next moment I opened my eyes in my bed. My body was still tripping hard but the quality of the visions was totally different from what I've just experienced. I was 100% sure that what just happened was not part of the trip, it was a totally different story. The tears were running down my cheeks.

It was almost 20 years ago but I'm still remembering that night almost every day. I wonder who those creatures were. If they are those souls who finished the "Earth school" - then I know for sure, no matter how much suffer we have in our lives, if we're supposed to become one of those beings at the end - it definitely worth that. It's an undescribably beautiful destination.

Just reading through this gave me shivers, I've had a bad time and it made me very happy and positive, thank you very much for sharing.

And welcome to the Nexus! What brings you here, do you do psychedelics lately? There's a chat button on the upper left corner, if you feel like semi afking with the PC on feel free to click on it, there's some good convos going on in there sometimes!

Cheers!

“Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people.”

I sat in a circle of angels.
A place I had not been before.
I heard the sweet choir of Heaven,
Sing praise to the Lord evermore.

I must have missed the part where you died. What makes you think that's what occurred?