Hello everybody!

I won't write very much, because I am pretty tired and rather unable to sustain such an effort because of ADHD.

After spending many years of my life being extremely close to Nature, I spent as many years trying to negate the deep spiritual connection I was feeling for Her, because rationalism and skepticism are also some of my core values. Lately, I understood I had cut a major part of my inner self, thus feeling a deep void in me. I feel as if I was extinct.

I lived harsh things (also because of other things, among them a gender transition, a toxic love relationship, extreme social isolation, and so on), went though a suicidal depression, lost almost all my joy of life, even when my depression was over.

Lately, I understood that I really needed to reconnect to my inner magic, set aside my extreme rationalism, and answer the call I have sensed from the time I learned the existence of Ayahuasca.

Now I am trying to learn about Her, and totally willing to have a try. I just don't know how to get some, since I am in France and it is illegal here. I am a bit afraid to have legal problems if I order from the Netherlands, since I found no other online sellers...

Thank you in advance for understanding that I won't be able to react to all your potential answers, my energy is limited. Also, my pronouns are she/her, thanks for respecting that.

Have a nice day/night!

Arduinna

Welcome!

imo, growing and consuming sacred cacti, can be an easy & effective way to deal with emotional trauma, under the right conditions, for mentally healthy individuals.

On growing, Trichocereus cacti are generally legal to grow throughout the world (check about France specifically); caring for plants can, itself, be healing.

Consumption of these cacti is generally not legal, but there are a variety of medicine preparation methods that are unlikely to draw attention. Proper set, setting, and intention are necessary conditions, having a tripsitter is advisable during initial experiences, imo, if consuming.

To learn more about growing sacred cacti, a good source, are the youtube videos on “San Pedro Mastery”