Thank you for sharing this!
I have had some similar themes in my journeys too.
I recently got the feeling that I know enough about the cosmic secrets and going deeper right now would mostly be an appeal to my vanity rather than true spiritual quest. I have received a lots of insights on how a good life should look like and how I should strive for it. This has left me perplexed, since I'm very aware of what's wrong, but fixing things is also very difficult.
Do you feel that you have been able to steer your life into right direction after what has been told to you?