Hello to all Nexicans. In exactly two weeks I will be attending a ceremony with a Columbian shaman so I can be healed by the Madre. I have an extreme fear about this event even though I have travelled in Hyperspace many times with Dimitri and have only beautiful tales to tell.

However, I had a terrible experience a long time ago with Hongos and it has been in the back of my mind ever since. The first hour or so was extactic but I soon realised it was only getting stronger and stronger and the panic set in. During the bad part of the experience my mind collapsed like a dying star turning into a Black Hole, I was not there anymore and everything I knew just kept falling into the depths of my mind.

While this was happening I could see myself on the floor with a terrified look on my face and I was calling out and trying to help myself but everything just kept being pulled away from me and myself. It Really felt like I was dying in two bodies at the same time and that it would never end but it all happened so fast and was over before I new it. When I had gladly returned I could not stop questioning whether it had actually happened or not. It was a complete mind crippler.

Im sorry if that makes no sense it is very hard to explain and I get the shivers when those memories come back. It is my own fault because I had a home made mushroom soup with half a wizard (Oz) of Liberty Caps, I had just discovered that they exist and got over excited.

I think this trip traumatised me and caused my anxiety in everyday life and funnily enough i am seeking an even more profound and mysterious compound to heal me. Can half an ounce of liberty caps even compare to Waska or is it to infinity and beyond, I just don't know what to expect and that is what scares me. Does Waska cripple the mind or do you see everything so clearly like on Dimitri, my thoughts and mind were always completely intact in Hyperspace.

If anyone could offer me some advice as how to mentally prepare myself for the ceremonia and also what waska feels like, that will be greatly appreciated.

Thank you in advance for any advice

Deep Mind Traveler

Peace

Sounds to me like u were cripled by the shrooms jaw cracking intensity. You curled up in the fetal position and endured the discomfort. What you have to do is force yourself to smile, dance, activate a hidden well of love, light, and life, and not sucumb to dispair. Easier said than done...but it can be done. One's knowledge of oneself is armour and sword. Also, Elvis was right when he sang Fools Rush In n_n

Aya is much nicer! Psilocybin has a mean bite to it most times. Aya is more natural...more like dmt.

Btw, what plants are u gonna use?

Next time, try 3 to 4.5 grams of dried Lemon Balm leaf tea with the mushrooms, Aya, or Psilo-huasca. Lemon Balm smooths out the come up, making things gentler, less intense, doesn't hold back the benefits and higher states and all that, eases anxiety, reduces fear/panic/terror.

Another thing to keep in mind is to have a playlist of some good music and listen to it during the come up, giving you something positive to focus on rather than being at the mercy of the random chaos of the mind.

If you're hesitant to go the oral DMT/Aya route, check out Psilohuasca, it's the next best thing and is gentler than Aya with oral DMT, the Harmalas also have some sedative/relaxant properties that can help you be more comfortable during a Psilocin experience.