Just about 30 mins ago I came back from my first entry to jimjam hyperspace in quite a while... I've been sticking with ayahuasca for the last 2-3 months.
Firstly - the VaporStar worked very well. Almost too well!! I just wanted a little re-intro .. and I got a near-full breakthrough. I wasnt ready! I was fighting it a bit.. the trouble with the VaporStar is its hard to judge how much you are taking.
You need to fill the bowl a bit to get a decent hit, so its not simple like a bong where you put your dose in the bowl and hoot it all down.
I was in candle light so could not see the vapors... and could hardly feel it, just a slight taste as I inhaled. The first time it didnt really work .. so I added more Changa, and sprinkled some limonene-extracted jimjam spice on top... one big hoot and I was gone!
That feeling of being taken over almost completely... I wasnt ready! But it was good still. I was taken to the familiar room with spinning patterns everywhere... I cant remember so much, but then I went into some processing about my current situation. Different perspectives being shown to me. I then was shown some quite dark stuff, it felt like a dark part of my soul. The image of a bird with a large beak. A great sadness. I wanted to cry. It was like, up here is the multi-coloured fun world, and down here is the dark side...... I was taken there, I think for the first time (on smoked dmt anyway). There was a feeling of uglyness, it was not a good place. But a place to learn from all the same. It felt that I was being shown a part of myself that needs healing. My spirit has been down of late. And I feel that I received some healing. I needed a mind-reset, which is why I decided to step back into hyperspace.
Its like that feeling of "this will be good for me" and as I get sucked in its like "wait wait not this far I'm not ready" but by then its too late...!!
Well, I am thankful, as always, for what I was shown, and for the healing I received, but it was a hairy ride for sure!
I am back, feeling like my mind has been cleansed, ready to take on my challenges and proceed with love.
Blessings to all!
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