recently dipped my feet into the hyperspace pool. was smoking light yellow crystals sandwiched between cannabis in a bong. started very slowly with around 10mg or so and only got mild visuals and a very overwhelming warm feeling. already i could tell whatever it was is was was exciting. (i assume it was extracted from an acacia obtus, ect). then i went a little further... this is when i got really confused. i loaded about 20mg-30mg into another sandwich then had heavy fractals in my vision and i had many voices (some friends) in my head telling me to take another hit, they chanted it was very amusing and i joined in. it felt too strong though, i wasnt ready. i laid down and looked around in amazement, i closed my eyes and had intense fractal imagery, my ears were ringing and my lips were swollen. i felt like i had been poisoned. plant poison. teach you to eat my bark punk, i thought. worried about the swollen lips i came here and lurked. convinced myself it was normal after reasearching and continued my journey. i had a few more times like the one described, seemingly always with this idea that i needed more but was afraid of what would happen. i decided to concentrate more on just exploring lower doses feeling like i wasnt ready. with the same ROA as above a couple of days later i tried again. a few low doses later and i got confident. i decided i would use it like mushrooms or lsd and toke and watch tv. i turned on seinfeld and packed a sandwich. i smoked it and felt as if i had a tolerance as it had only been about 30mins-1hr after my last hit. so i loaded another, smoked it, held it in for a moment and exhaled. everything felt normal, the fractals were coming to play and i felt good. seinfeld was hard to watch and extremely distorted but still there, everything seemed to speed up all of a sudden an intense feeling like the universe was collapsing in on itself. seinfeld then went from what sounded like chaotic roars and many voices talking over eachother turned to a calm seemingly dreamlike television show. i thought i had broken through i thought this is it woo hoo! lets learn. but i seemed to be paralyzed. i looked down at myself laying there and was repulsed, well certainly not happy with what i saw. i began to have revelations about where i was. i started realising the spices alien nature and felt infected by it, i felt like i had been weighed on almighty scales and found unworthy. tossed into an eternal pit of unhappy seinfeld watching. a hell of sorts for me to do some thinking. it felt like the worst thing i could be stuck doing and i was going to do it forever. i was scared and angry but also relieved i had been through death or whatever it was and accepted my fate. the infectious god thing was telling me all of this while i was realising it. i wanted out. NOW! i had a realisation. that i still had to breakthrough more. this paralyzed state was fake, like the matrix a projection on my mind. the voice said that i already knew what i needed to do. i did. i needed to move. more than that i was starting to feel like if i died i would reset back to before i smoked the dmt that killed me. i decided that i should check a clock and wait a while before commiting to anything like that. so i grabbed my phone and sat there and watched time and i was back.. i guess.. what is back. less fractals? dmt seemed to answer no questions. it left me scared and confused. all i had were many many more questions that i started with which was one of the greatest feelings ive ever had. im not proof reading this this is just a go hard trip report i guess. i dont even know if it makes sense but here it is. i would love some feedback as i am unsure of my next step. i have taken dmt a couple more times since then with results that seem to make me even more confused. im not sure if i have broken through and definately feel like i could go further but am worried about effects on my mental health and fear extreme time dialation. should i go further? have i gone too far? also about 2 weeks after this my friend called me and asked if i wanted a ticket to a sold out seinfeld show. it added to my bewilerment, i went and it was surreal. i pondered the trip while watching him preform.

The Feeling of being overwhelmed and scared, like you'll be stuck there forever happened to me once when I smoked a large dose of changa. Fear and resistance doesn't make for a pleasant psychedelic experience.

Usually at some point during or right after coming back from hyperspace I will get a message with some aspect of my life that I need to change. You might find that if ignore it you will get the same message the next time you blast off, but this time it will be much more intense, DMT isn't afraid to slap you around if you need it.

im not deterred yet. and want to go back. i know that running low on spice and want to maoi next time and vape it properly so im waiting for now.

also i am trying to go with the flow and stuff and not resist. its just like i create the flow. its not an entity telling me anything its me dressed as a entity telling myself this stuff and then i get paranoid about just coming back schizophrenic or something. and the trip turns dark or whatever. it keeps telling me the universe is a projection of my mind. i am resistant to believe stuff like that because i dont want to feel like other people are just my projection....are you? are you my projection and im yours is that how this works? is everyone a philosophical zombie to the viewer who is a consciousness?

I was scared and overwhelmed by the lack of paragraph breaks. I'd love to read the report but it's melting my eyeballs!

Could you be an absolute darling, fractalgazer, and pop in some paragraph breaks and maybe put capitals at the start of each sentence (which, incidentally, can be done fairly easily in a word processing program)?