Hi guys! So...

I've got some changa, and it's my first time using it. I never liked smoking, so I'm not used to inhale smoke or to light something to smoke.

My FIRST trip:

I prepared myself a lot...wow! My first time! I'm gonna finally go out of this body! Meditation before it! Yoga too! What a dream to become true after watching a lot of videos online about trips on dmt! So....what an huge expectation...any chance to get a good trip? Not at all...

As soon as I picked the pipe to light it my heart went crazy! Resuming it: I lit it wrong, pulled too strong, swallowed smoke, started coughing...huehuehue...I think I had two bad tokes.
As the trip starts there is no ringing in my ears! No beautiful mandala like McKenna says! There's something wrong! A psychedelic trip starts out with eyes closed, but as soon it goes out I can barely remenber it. It was a bit scary.

SECOND trip:

I then think what took me at this point? To be curious to do this? It was my first trip with visuals...I was drunk, after a whole night of party, a girlfriend of a friend of mine got some daime in her house and asked if we wanted to try...well of course!
I had no idea what was it, no idea about daime or aya, or entheogens...no expectations...I just did it...no fear...no preparation...no mysticism or sacred respect...And there I was seeing an old man who looked just like Gandalf smoking a pipe and blowing the smoke on me...as soon the smokes hit's me there's only peace and silence, that with eyes open like an internal hallucination.

Well, I tried to keep the respect, sure, but this time, no huge preparations or fireworks.

The real preparation is built daily, so when the time comes you are as easy as I was when I was drunk drinking daime...hehe

But before I have re-read some topics on burning changa correctly here in nexus...so I did.
The trips starts...in the beginning it sounds like a deja vu from the first one, a little bit of fear but ok, I know I will be back...no ring on years...no real visuals on open eyes...but I hit it again, and as soon I close my eyes I go meditative on the visuals...it feels strange, really psychedelic, but somewhat too dark...I can't describe the forms, crazy stuff, no meaning...I quetion during the trip if it's right to a dmt trip? Is this really changa?...maybe this kind of thoughs come from expectations still...and I'm back...A lot better and calm this time...the afterglow is a calm meditative feeling.

THIRD trip:

Well, this time I have written down in a paper some steps to follow like only to cherry the changa with the flame, smoke slooow, hoooold it calm...and put it in front of me. Some relaxing music and let's go!

I give it like two "good" tokes holding the first one, the second, already a bit groggy, i didn't hold that much, I think I'm still struggling to light and smoke it correctly but I will get into that in the end.

After that, again like the other times, there is no ringing in the ears, the visuals with open eyes are almost inexistent, time is fast distorted, am I ready kind of toughts...but as soon I close my eyes I get stuck into this state...same psychedelics visuals, no fractals...some rounded enlongated stuff, hard to describe, but it's dark...again the thought if this is really dmt and if there is something wrong...and then I kind relax more on the visuals and my thoughts flows in to more conceptual ideas...suddenly I interpret those crazy dark moving things to be life, like our life, and it grows and transforms itself as time goes on...time to time I got a feeling that there is some danger or something going to be wrong during that life passing and I'm gone loose it, a bit fear rises, discomfort...but then some peacefull light shows up, all times in the corners of my visual field, and it pours light in to that life which is transforming itself, and then the balance is again restablished. One time I feel like that light pours some light on me and I feel good and calm...The life goes on this and get's to some point of dying...(When I say life here it's not an entity, it's like our life...we born, grow, face challenges, transform, get old...die)

Going to the end of the trip I feel calm, I see those forms as my life or your life, a human life, that is always chaging as we grow, and sometimes it will go dark, we face difficulties...but some sort of help comes to heal and restablish the equilibrium. God? Universal conscience? I don't know.

But it was far from some life changing experience or something like that...

Soooo...I think that's far from a breakthrough experience, isn't it?
At leats far from what I expect when I see videos like these:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XlBzIecpxfE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vAMnBuZdYjs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6umdf4Ef970

Maybe I shouldn't compare to those...But still I feel like I'm struggling to light my changa and smoke it properly...I try to only cherry it, but it looks like it doesn't work...so I put the flame more into it, it lights on, no flames, but it's glowing, but sounds it burns fast, it get's a bit harsh to smoke...I try to smoke slow...but I don't know...

You guys who use changa, how large is your pipe cone? Do you think I sould move to a bong?
Is there any differencefor you to trip in dark or with light's on? (I mean in the room or place you are) So far for me there was no difference.

Anyway, since my first time looks like I made some real improvements, I will try to master it.

Cya!