Hi guys,
Had my 3rd Pharma experience last night.
Did not write a report on the 2nd one, but you can read about my first journey here:
https://www.dmt-nexus.me...aspx?g=posts&t=67526Dosed 280mg freebase harmala isolate and 80mg freebase DMT in lemon juice this time.
I drank the medicine at 11pm, had a fruit smoothie about 7hours prior, so my stomach should have been pretty empty.
Had some muesli in the morning with 500g of yogurt in it, but that was like 14hours prior to dosing, not sure if that made a difference.
On my 2nd trip I dosed harmalas (250mg) about 45min prior to the DMT (70mg) and the whole trip was more stretched out and mellow than the first one. I figured this was because I did not eat anything after dosing.
So this time, I tried to replicate the 1st experience and drank the harmalas and DMT together again, and also had some banana smoothie after dosing – just half a glass this time though.
Overall I would put the intensity of this trip somewhere in the middle of the 1st and the 3rd trip.
The comeup was more intense than the 2nd trip, but nowhere near as insane as on the 1st trip, at no point did I have the feeling of being out of control.
Maybe this would have been different if I'd have eaten more after dosing?
Nevertheless was this a very nice and quite intense trip.
It was quite emotional and I had some very profound realizations about my life.
I love the therapeutic properties of Pharma, it feels like one good trip is better than months of psychotherapy.
I put on some quiet Steve Hillage music that was recommended to me on here (Rainbow Dome Musick – Garden of Paradise) and dimmed the lights.
This music seems to work great for spinning around thoughts, at some point I just turned it off though, because quiet felt better then.
Put thick blankets on my couch, enough water and some smoothie in reach.
Had my notebook handy and was writing down the best thoughts and realizations that came to mind.
Unfortunately my pen broke down towards the end, but loved writing stuff down and will definitely do this again next time.
Did not purge during the first two or so hours, and thought I was “over the hill”, when it suddenly hit me.
The nausea was getting stronger and stronger in relation to some major emotional releasing – I could immediately sense this. Might have been able to hold back and not purge, but it just felt “right”.
Felt so much better after purging, emotionally and physically.
This was really a great experience, as it showed me the value of purging, not just seeing it as a bad thing to be avoided.
Close to 3am the effects of DMT started to wear off and for the next 90min I was quite content and happy, kept drifting off to all kinds of thoughts, but also being quite exhausted from the trip and the purge.
Fell asleep on my couch about 4.30am.
I did not have a Breakthrough, same as during the 2nd time.
Upon some thinking, I might have had one during the intense comeup on the 1st trip, but that was during broad daylight and I did not close my eyes.
Pharma really feels like the “anti-drug” to me, no drug I could ever imagine to abuse or to use for escape.
It truly feels like a medicine for the soul.