Hey there :]

So I went for my first DMT session on October 16th, and It's been awhile since I've written about my experience,, seems like the DMT has finally work off,, or at least I just have a lot in my mind today, let's hope writting about my experience helps bring back those feelings. :]


So I went to a Teacher, a very kind and pure person from the Sonoran desert, He administrates doses to a lot of people down here in Mexico and uses the term Sacred Medicine. I had to prepare for this, no meat, no sex, no drugs, no sugar for 1 week. and so the day came. :]


So I walked in, he started saying a prayer, and he told me to exhale and as soon as I'm done exhaling he was going to hand me the glass pipe so I could smoke 100mg of bufoalvarius dmt. He started counting from 9 to 0... I don't remeber getting to 3 :]

So I started coughing, really bad, and I could hear my teacher yelling, get everything out, all the stress all the hatred, just puke it out!! I tried but couldn't puke,, I started like,, a gag reflex.. just trying to puke,, and all of the sudden My voice, or the sounds I was making start to sound like a robot being digitally erasedd,, Y start seeing this huge wormhole,, it was like on top of my head,, and Everything starts moving, I start yelling "what is this, what's happening to me??" I suddenly feel like they melted me and started molding me,, like every piece of me was just melted on different parts of this tunnel,,, a lot of emotion,, Heard screams, laughter, cries, and felt a lot of anxiety and happyness and just about everything,,, when I started to feel agitated I started to Breath IN.

I think I stopped moving, and I just kept breathing In until I notice I haven exhaled,, I started laughin and saying,, "what! I'm not exhaling,, Im just breathing" "what is this" "why am I not exhaling" I keep laughing, and then I calm down I say to my self "ok, ok, lets calm down" and I exhale.. as soon as I exhale (I had my eyes shut the whole time) I see a huge explosion coming out of my hand,, and I look at it, with my eyes closed, and start laughing, I say to my self again "ok, ok,, hahaha,, wow! I can see my hands with closed eyes!!, ok, ok, let me try again" then I breathe in, then exhale.. and everything around me just starts glowing, my body was made out of a Gold, molten, brilliant type of material, like a sun.. and the more I breathe in and the more I concentrate the more detail I can see,, It was just amaizing,,

After playing around with my concentration and trying to see with closed eyes,, I start relaxing, and say to myself "oh wow,, ok.. this.. I think it's kicking in... ok,, ok" and this,, headless golden snake, covered in a gold-like molten wax,, starts moving towards me, from like a far distance,, the tip of the snake seemed like an Ice cream cone,, I knew it was like a spyral covered in molten golden wax.. and I start to like,, feel this tranquility, this inmense peace,, and as the snake starts closing in, it starts to turn into a golden disc, and just spinning, until it puts me on this,, peaceful trance..

I then suddenly stop thinking, stop listening, stop feeling, stop everything.. I felt like I was smiling, the only thought in my head was that there was no though... after I woke up I realized I got sent to the so called "eternity" I was nowhere, but I was everywhere, there was nothing that could bother me, or nothing taht could make me happy, I stop existing., I was in this Eternal silence, Peace didn't even exist, It was just NOTHING. NOTHING NOTHING. just Silence, peace, tranquility, eternity.

I woke up,, with what I now call a Mona Lisa Smile... which I think I know understand why DaVinci painted someone who doesn't "exist" with what everyone thinks is a Smile.. look at that painting,, that's the face of someone with nothing but pure light in its mind :]

I'm going on saturday for my 2nd session. can't wait.