Spice Monday came and went pleasantly. 4 People participated, loads was learned, everyone had a great time.
No clear way to describe these things but il try my best.
Okay so 8mg was loaded and smoked - my mind was focused on my previous euphoric experiences to link the buzzz and body buzzz to the euphoria, i decided i was just going to accept whatever i experienced.
After a few seconds the normal spice feelings came on and intensified slowly. At first there was a lot of color and shapes, i felt as if someone had blown gently on my forehead and then quickly the colors formed into a round tunnel infront of me, a wormhole - my usual form of transport - if more was smoked i would have popped out the other end.
Very quickly i realized that this was going to be intense but not breakthu obviously. After traveling down the tunnel just a bit my attention moved to the right - to a square tunnel that became an open feild of finite size - perhaps double the size of a tennis court.
In this field there were entities, loads of them(seemed almost like fellow travelers), and in 2 states - either standing up and moving to a new location or crouching down on their haunches.
I couldnt see any features to identify them individually but i got their essence, they were just like dark to black shadow like figures on a dark grey (but grass) landscape at night.
If crouched - the entity was in thought, to move to a new thought one stands up and moves from their current location and crouches again.
There were circles of a number of entities and ones by them selves.
Quite quickly i noticed the nasty female being that has been harassing me was there - she looked identical to the rest of them but i knew by her vibration who she was.
She wasnt in thought but rather always moving in and out of my feild of vision - like running left to right then right to left - the more i cleared my mind the closer she got, by thinking i could drive her away - i dont like her energy.
At times it felt like we were to be one but i wouldnt let that happen - loads of things were going thru my head about my perception - how do i view this situation, with my current view i beleave everything i see is real - just on another level - things we dont experience usually but spice gives us access to - another viewpoint is its all in ur head - ur brain makes it up - u cant get hurt(having this viewpoit makes things easier i suppose)
I decided to respond with intuition - if it makes me feel bad - il avoid it - merging seemed wrong.
This entity strikes fear into me - and what it really is is becomming clearer everytime i encounter it. At first i thought it was only with jungle that this entity would come - this time it came (pure spice) but it was different.
With jungle its like getting locked in a box 20m underground with no route out - face to face - almost pressed against the entity - 100% focus is on it.
With the spice it is like its there but not the main event - i only get locked in from thinking about it.
Huge progress made and loads understood - it may not be visible from this report but this experience has made quite an impact in a positive way in my life - (as usual with spice)
antrocles wrote:...purity of intent....purity of execution....purity of experience...
...unlike the "blind leading the blind". we are more akin to a group of blind-from-birth people who have all simultaneously been given the gift of sight but have no words or mental processing capabilites to work with this new "gift".
IT IS ONLY TO THE EXTENT THAT WE ARE WILLING TO EXPOSE OURSELVES OVER AND OVER AGAIN TO ANNIHILATION THAT WE DISCOVER THAT PART OF OURSELVES THAT IS INDESTRUCTIBLE.
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He who packs ur capsules - controls your destiny.