Thought i would share with you all another experience of mine i had a few hours ago, this one was rather notable.

I feel the need to first point out that the two days ago i had a rather overwhelming experience, vaped too high a dose and got both barrels. It was a harsh but great experience and i was determined not to be shaken by such intensity in future.

So this time i vaped 40mg, i was aiming to get another overwhelming experience so that i could face it with a newfound solidarity.

I took two hits and before the third i knew the coming experience was going to test me due to the strong body feel.

I closed my eyes and the crescendo rose to its peak much faster than usual. Straight away i felt the presence of a collective entity, composed of many beings which all thought and acted as one whole.

This group entity was flooding my vision with images and geometry which were blindingly bright and right in my face. The entity knew i was testing myself and decided it wanted to test my mettle aswell. Not only were the images overwhelming, it was like the entity was stripping my defenses and leaving me bare, vulnerable to its onslaught. I felt their energy flooding into me, gazing at me with overwhelming intensity in an attempt to intimidate me.

In short this group entity was really putting me through the mill, and my defenses were shaken by it. Some fundamental part of me was resisting the attack, finding it uncomfortable, whilst my conscious mind battled the subconscious discomfort with orders akin to "relax, dont resist, dont fear, its not too much, its fine, breathe.

As i breathed i could feel built up anxiety and tension in my abdomen being emphasised and released with each breathe, in a very powerful and cleansing way.

I was extremely disappointed that my subconscious became unsettled after i had spent a day preparing myself for this test. As the peak started subsiding i was bombarded with images of entities laughing at my failure mockingly. I could feel their laughter and mocking as a mental sensation.

As they laughed at me i let go of my disappointment and laughed along with them, to which they responded by suddenly showering me with attempts to unsettle me, which surprised me and stopped me laughing, but with the fading of the peak they lacked the energy to effect me.

As i continued to wind down i enjoyed the visuals and began appreciating the lesson centered nature of the experience. I was reminded that the spice is not only a teacher in a figurative sense, but also in a much more solid and interactive manner.

Dissapointed, humbled, amused and determined i shall continue my relationship with this beautiful substance.

Next time melt.

Said like a true zen master! I'm not sure i know exactly what you mean, but its true that generally, terms like solidarity and steadfast are somewhat opposite to what you need whilst journeying, fluidity is definitely a better descriptor and goal.

I understand that principle entirely, but for me it doesn't describe the way i was hoping my subconscious would remain unshaken by the intensity. Alas i think if the monkey mind is ever going to become comfortable with over-high doses, it will take some time before i get there. Its all good though of course.

Don't worry about those guys man. I've had very similar experiences. They seem to be lower entities.. or something. Spice is very often hopping into a different river. I've had a number of strong experiences with intimidating entitites, as I'm sure many have had on this board as well. And there's really so many ways of interpreting it.. but I'd say: don't be afraid to return. There are some really loving beings and a loving universe that underlie this place we inhabit.
Nature loves courage. But as perhaps House alluded too.. with melting.. don't be afraid to relinquish control and receive.

Thanks for the support Cave Paintings, i actually found the experience really positive and amusing. It definitely only fueled my desire to return rather than perturb me, it did however give me the hard earned lesson that ridiculous doses arent something you can expect to casually sit through in comfort, best to stick to more sensible doses!

Your determination to face the unsettling and work through the experience is definetly inspiring. Very nice read indeed .