I have been meaning to write out a few of my recent experiences with changa as they have opened my eyes and given me a very serious respect for the molecule. This is something not to be messed with and in all honesty I believe it to be a gift from the heavens. It seems as though it is conscious, and it knows more about us than we know about it. It wants us to have the experience, it wants us to have a good time, but it also demands respect. The moment the smoke hits the longs it’s clear that there is something to be learned. This is a collection of three of my latest experience. The first being the most profound one yet. The last two giving me a whole new respect.

The night had went as my usual weekend routine goes. I have my regular group of good friends whom I go out and generally roll with and have the time of my life with. One particular person in this group is L. She is the most free spirited, and beautiful human being that I have ever encountered. The type of person that when you meet you can’t help but love with all of your heart. I always thought there was something strange about our relationship, strange in the sense that we got along almost too well, from the very start. Like I had known her before. We got back to my place for afterhours and I decided I wanted to smoke some of the changa I had made. It consisted for a 1:1 ratio of DMT and Caapi. Now I know this was not a smart thing to do as Caapi is an MAOI but It allowed for me to have one of the most beautiful experiences of my life. So amazing that it was the last time I feel that I will ever need to combine the two substances again. As I drew the hit I saw the cloudy white smoke fill the bong and it one go I inhaled. I felt it hit instantly, and the most unreal body high ensued. As I laid next to L I gazed into her eyes and they shot open, her face covered in beautiful tribal paint. I was holding her arms and I could feel our energy coursing through every pore. I started to have memories of us together that I have never had in this lifetime. Memories of us laying together in a Tepee and just enjoying each other’s company. The more I stared into her face the more it changed from form to form some human some not, but all L. I knew it was her soul in each of these forms. They all seemed so familiar. So beautiful. I’ve known her for so many life times. This was a profound revelation. She has always been there for me. The final form she took was that of a goddess, her skin glowed and at that moment I realized this was her true form. We are all our own god, our own soul, and we are all here for each other. I have never felt such love in my life. Love is the foundation of this universe. This may not be a breakthrough in a traditional sense, but it was a breakthrough for me.

A few weeks down the road I decided to introduce my friend Z to the beauty that is change. I had her lay on my bed and let her take a rip or two from the bong. She laid back for around 10 minutes but interestingly enough seemed not so amazed. I decided I wanted to take a small little bit so I took a hit off the bong, and before I knew it felt as though my entire body was dissolving into the other realm. It was inviting me, almost begging me to go. But I had no prepared to breakthrough and I fought it. I didn’t feel ready, I couldn’t let go. But had I surrendered I know I would have and I know it would have been profound. I very much so regret not taking the universes hand and just trusting it. The feeling of transcendence was profound, and I could feel a presence that loved me more than I have ever been loved.
That same night I went out to the bar and had a few drinks with my friends and was feeling pretty good. I got home and drunk me immediately decided to take a rip off the bong as I thought it might help me let go a bit easier. Boy was I wrong. The moment the smoke hit my longs a feeling of sadness and remorse ensued. I have never been so uncomfortable on a drug in life. It didn’t feel bad but I could tell it was trying to teach me a lesson. I sat in my bed and cried as I apologized profusely for what I had done. I realized I can’t taint such magic with such poison. The molecule was telling me that I am ready for it, and my time is here. It told me I don’t need something else to help let go. I can’t even begin to truly describe this feeling.

Can’t wait to start extracting my own so I can learn more secrets of the universe. I feel so privileged to have had the experiences I have had. Truly life altering. It’s hard to not be happy these days knowing the true beauty and nature of our existence.

Wow, these sound truly amazing!