I thought about the nexus today which got me thinking about my DMT that's been collecting dust. I smoked a little pot and then I decided to smoke some DMT sandwich style with some caapi leaf.

It was an enjoyable come up. Everything in the room got that weird plastic look to it. I didn't break through. So, I'd smoke a bit and go a little further over about three times or so.

The last time I had a very strange feeling when I came down. I knew I didn't break through even though I had OEV and CEV. I didn't really go anywhere. It's hard to explain... I just felt off for not going "there".

I decided I'd load up a bowl to take me away. So, I did and on the second hit I had a coalescing sensation at the center of my body. I saw a dim blue light that seemed to be surrounded by a glowing but it was glowing black. Next, I couldn't feel my lungs breathing anymore or the need to breathe. By now I was sure I was going "there". Then the room became made out of shapes which each had a neon green, purple, or orange like glow around the edge.

The room disassembled before my eyes and then I was gripped by something. I felt like I was pulled into it. I saw 4D shapes cruising around me creating some sort of a synthetic tree structure.

It felt like I had been there before. I had the distinct feeling of deja vu the entire time.

It felt like god was there with me. Something seemed to be communicating with me but there was no visual presence of it. It made me feel like that's where I belonged and that I was an integral part of what it was. I always had been and I will always be.

It looked incredible. I kept trying not to forget what just happened as I was coming down. I wanted to remember how real it was and how serious this actually was. I haven't been "there" in a while and I just went.

As I came down I literally felt the energy sipping inside of me slowing down little by little. It was a very physical feeling as it seemed to slowly spin to a halt.

Now, it's been about a half hour. I have a really nice calm and euphoric feeling.