Set: me and an old friend at my home
time: 19h till 23h
recent drug use for me: ayahuasca two weeks ago.
recent drug use friend: recovering from an addiction to chemical morphine since 4wks. Constant use of marihuana to combat withdrawal effects.

me: male, 80kgs, experienced with ayahuasca
friend: male, 80 kgs, first time ayahuasca

substance: drinking guayusa through the day.
9gr of syrian rue, 30 grams of chaliponga. Boiled it down to 500 ml in three boils, we both drank about 3 cups during the evening, finishing about half the bottle.
some marihuana.

The intent for this ritual to help my friend leave his addiction to morphine (and heroine before) behind him, as it is a slow suicide. He has had an intraveneus DMT experience some months ago which was both terrifying and promising.

I started the ritual with smudging the house and stating a prayer i developed two weeks ago, protecting the space by placing guardians at every corner. This seems to work pretty good for me, to keep unwanted guests out.

We drank 1 cup, which was pretty good tasting (i guess cutting down the rue from 11 to 9 grams did what i hoped it would do) and it was a very caring, loving presence. I have some helpers that stayed with me and they instructed me that my only job was to keep the place safe and stable; just to visualise the guardians on every corner and concentrate on the love&light we would be able to receive.

After 30 min I offered my friend a second cup, and after another 60 minutes another cup. This might seems a bit much, but the brew wasn’t that strong and i wanted him to reach a place where we could do some work on these patterns destroying his life. I drank a second cup as well, a bit less than his, and a firm third cup.

I sing some hymns, play some guitar, which he enjoys, while slowly approaching the threshold. Then I introduce Tucum, a spirit entity I am quite familiar with from the Santo Daime. Tucum hits my friend like a train at full speed. He immediately starts to vomit, even though nothing came out. Tucum is present in a very firm way, the hymn i sing is about driving out the evil and punishing liars with the truth, to drive out the darkness that keeps on from being happy. For over 45 minutes my friend went down in a deep proces of purging and letting go. Deep fear, alternating with anger. He is cold, warm, disorientated. I manage to stay present and surf on the strong effects. I feel the energy, but I am not the focus of the forces present; I am at their service. I see Tucum driving out darkness stuck in his body.

Then my friend starts to shape-shift. He is fighting something. I sense he is ruptured from the normal, forward flow of time and suffers from the disorientation that comes with this loss of the sense of time flowing. I see him morph. His face changes. Another person surfaces. I look in wonder. I get the sense that this person is associated with something that happened in his past. It is something he is struggling with. He ruptured from the normal flow of time and is connected to this person in the past, so strongly that he surfaces through him. The new face fades in and out existence while my fellow traveler is struggling. This person breaking through just seems so angry. Wrathful. I get the sense this is a dead person. He died and he blames my fellow traveler for his share in his dead. That’s it. This is a wrathful entity. I tell him, and he is astonished. At the moment, he isn’t able to talk. After the ritual he will confirm what i saw, he even recognizes the description i give of the person surfacing through him.

I just keep present, letting my spirit helpers do their job. Is see a lot of darkness leave his body. He has terrible chills, i cover him with blankets. He goes through some deep fears. After some time he calms down, connects back to an orientation in time and space. He feels cleared, happy, lighter.

The day after we talk some time about what happened. He is happy with the steps made and had a good night rest since weeks. I develop the idea to design a prayer for this entity, maybe there is some more work to be done to remove it totally, but Tucum has done quite some impressive job on him as he states.