A year and a half ago.

Me and my beloved drink some syrian rue tea, probably 3 grams a piece, perhaps a bit less. We wait a half hour for the heaviness of the rue to kick in. Smudge the house with white sage, then we sit down.


I begin lighting the VG with a torch, but the fuel runs low, so I switch to a bic. As I inhaled I noticed the light from the lighter, shining through my eyelid. Too bright, glaring. I was irritated for a second. Also concerned that the glaring light and my annoyance might mess up my trip....I had recently had a couple of experiences where unexpected outside stimuli colored my trip in unexpected ways and was hoping that would not happen again.

But the light gets brighter. Brighter. And then theres the buzzing noise, coming from the center of my head. Brighter! over-taking the whole world. the sound, even the buzzing, the feeling of having a body, all of everything is over-taken by the Light. I rise into the light as it descends upon me and i dissolve into it. I'm balling my eyes out even now typing this. So beautiful. Save a wretch like me! the Light, the shimmering infinite luminousity, pure orgasm, full body, full being orgasm.

All thoughts cease, time ceases. My little slice of eternity. It was like a black-out in reverse, a white-out experience.

And coming back was so blessed. returning to my body by degrees....this was like-wise pleasurable. very pleasurable--but i won't try to describe it. Fine, i'll say this much--my woman was utter beauty. i was crying and grateful beyond measure.

Anyways, that's what I can remember, a glorious transition into the light, a blank state for eternity, then a pleasant transition back.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Thanks for sharing - I feel it just from reading that!

My favorite experience was most likely my first white-out as well.

Interesting about the lighter! A friend of mine thought it was a good idea to shine a flashlight in my face while i was tripping on shrooms. What he saw was that i was intensely absorbed by a shining light. What i saw was a bright white light covered with a dozen eyes.

I hope for a white-out experience someday. I yearn for it even. I suspect it to be a very humbling experience for me. But most of all refreshing and empowering love.

yesssssssssssssssssssssssssss

My first breakthrough was a "white light experience" and they are certainly an amazing thing. I suggest checking out this thread for some discussion about it.

The White Light of Infinite Consciousness