The other day a friend gave me some mushrooms to help with my shoulder pain. I got much more than that and I am really grateful. I am reborn, humble and happy
It was really personal, but I will try my best to put it into words. Ok, let's get going!
Set & Setting : at home, with my uncle, fireplace going on.
Diet : ate a good meal around 16:00, had a couple of beers. after that just water and a coffee until T time.
Substance : Golden Teacher.
ROA : 1g ( about 8 caps ) oral with honey to mask the taste and a bit of bread to take it down easier.
Time of ingestion ( T ) : 23:24
Please take notice that it will be quite philosophical and a bit personal, so if you are not in for it, you are wasting time
( T )So I prepared myself, sit down in the living room, my uncle was watching TV. Ate them in a couple of minutes, almost purged once because of the taste but I managed to keep it down. Honey really masks the taste and actually make them taste good !
( T+4m )I finished eating, and I figure I should roll a joint for later, just in case
( T+5m )Smoalked some MJ and chilled back on the sofa. Nothing interesting for the next 15 minutes.
( T+20m )I am getting sleepy and a bit drowsy. I find it that its getting harder to focus on something. I find the fireplace more interesting and captivating than Resident Evil which my uncle was watching on TV. My head is getting lighter and I feel my sensitivity of the senses increase.
( T+30m )Senses are highly increased, the TV is making too much noise and I start seeing trails of very defined color patterns coming from the TV. OEV's have stepped in slowly and I notice the room opening up. Lights are getting brighter and after a couple more puffs of the joint I get this great idea! I can go to my room, it is completely quiet and dark, it will be the perfect canvas to start painting on.
( T+1h )I tell my uncle good night, he tells me safe tripping and I go in my room. At this point my shoulder didnt hurt anymore and I was still quite sleepy. I crawl in my bed, shut down the lights and get confortable. I was even thinking of sleeping
The visuals start kicking in curved patterns just flowing around me, and I was so amazed that I could focus on everything and even control the visuals and where I was going. A few minutes in I hear my uncle going to sleep. Over the next hour I just sat there and settled in. It felt like I was asleep, because everything was so familiar. I get the same feeling, even the visuals every night I go to sleep, there are still there, I just didnt notice them
I was also shocked of how present I was. It is hard to put into words, but even tho my mind was doing backflips off the walls of my head, I was really aware and present. I spent the next 10 to 15 minutes trying to get up and go in the living room to have a smoke and chill by the fire. When I finally get up, I look at the clock and am really surprised it has only been an hour since I've been in bed.
( T+2h )I finally get up, and go to the bathroom before hitting the living room. I kinda have a bad time in the bathroom when I'm tripping, the tiles make me confused and for some reason my body reacts by purging. Anyway, this time I chose to do it with the lights off so nothing could happen to me
. The moon was also helping shining grey light over the floor.
So I get to the living room, grab my joint and just sit in front of the fire. I am captivated. Everything was quiet except the wind blowing outside and the fire burning. I literally got down on my ass on the floor and dazed into the fire. This is where the philosophical part comes in
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At this point I lost the notion of time and left my notebook in my room, but I made an effort to keep some notes in my head
Suddenly everything became so simple, indeed it was, just like the fire burning in front of me, heating my face. We as humans choose to complicate everything, always... we lost the gratitude for being alive and replaced it with so many useless things. At the end of the day what more do you need than something in your stomach and a warm shelter? You don't need anything more than this to live, so why do you make it so hard? Just go back to this, and work your way up from there, making your life better everyday.
Stop blaming everyone for the mistakes you make. Stop blaming your parents, their parents, your teachers, your politicians or your system. It is you that is making it happen and you have the power to make it better. We are all human, and what makes you think you are separate from everyone? Just because they are on a different road than you doesnt mean that they are diferent.
Be happy that there is someone else out there doing the bad things, and not yourself. We are all capable of the kindest of acts and of most evil actions, but in the end it is a choice. So rejoice that you are surrounded by good-hearted, loving and kind people and not on darker paths. Say thanks every day for the food and the shelter, and leave the world a better place everywhere you go. Stop trying to make your presence felt, make your absence missed instead.
Half way in this I got a break and I thought I'm coming down. This is where the more personal part started. Beside all these thoughts on life, I kept coming down to my uncle; and this is the funny part. We are not related, we are just 2 people that crossed roads and stay together. Mind I say that he takes care of be, took me out of a dark place, and I had so many wonderful experiences with him; with or without drugs. I would never have got here if it wasn't for him, so I am grateful. At this point I just wanted to go and wake him up and give him a hug, and he wouldn't have minded, because he understands me more than everyone. I chose not to do it because he was going to wake up early to go train the dogs.
I still gave him a hug when he got home and told him about my experience. He was happy for me
. It is a curious thing how roads cross and we meet the right people at the right time. I was still quite high, rolled another joint and after a couple of puffs I went back to my room.
It seems that it lasted 4 hours. This is what my last notes say before I fell asleep:
Quote:You cannot change the world, because the world is OK. Change yourself if you have a problem with the world.
LOVE IS FREE AND INFINITE
I am completely changed for the best after this experience and am really grateful for it. I will try to be a better person, because we are all on narrow roads and struggling to live. I hope you enjoyed reading this, and thank you for spending you time doing it; it means much to me
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PS: This is my first trip report, sorry if I missed anything.
Have a wonderful day, travel safely and give love
With these hands I have killed man and destroyed hopes and dreams. But when I open these hands I can hold my wife, make my children laugh and even aid others. It's not the path that we take but the choices that we make along that path that makes us who we are. -Waugriff