Approx 20mg

No food in my stomach all day.

After takin a 4 hour nap in the morning...

I grab the gvg, put it to my mouth. Im thinking to myself "I am not awake enough to have any outside thoughts going on, this should be interesting". My heart started racing and I heated it up and went for it. Vapor poured into the GVG very quickly filling it up. I easily cleared it all and held it in.

I knew as soon as it became strong something was wrong. I could see/feel/hear "pain, hate" and I could see darkness swirling in a very small space. It was small because thats all I was being allowed. I thought "I am doing something wrong, the DMT is telling me to stop what I am doing. Am I disrespecting her?" It says to me "Pain, hate, suffering"

I try and force a smile, this smile starts to almost light things up a bit but quickly becomes very dark again and I cannot feel the emotion you get from smiling. Happiness is being held from me, I must go through this I did something wrong. This entity (demon) is very strong and uses the color red often. Right now in the form of what looks like a few red stars, far far away shining down to me and twinkling.

Then something comes to me, an IDEA of sorts. "I dont have to have a negative DMT experience, Im stronger than that, I dont like this negativity and I am not going to allow it" or something along those lines. I force another smile and push through it, it comes and goes and is difficult to hold onto. I feel as if a battle is going on and I CAN win.

The darkness starts to light up with white, and blues, and greens. I feel something reaching out to me to help rid myself of this darkness. I start having VERY STRONG realizations.

Then it happens.

Multiple good entities start to communicate with me and show me things. They used my thoughts and memories to communicate. They made it very aware they were trying to communicate with me. Showed me I was something really important. That I can overcome evil. I am somehow strong. They want to help protect me from evil. They showed me them covering me in a blanket of white light (protection).

One of them filled me, inside me or my spirit or my body (not quite sure), and is with me everywhere I go, now or always has been i dont know. It shows me why I just had the dream that I JUST WOKE UP FROM.

[THIS is the dream I had right before dosing:]

In my dream I'm watching from 3rd person. Two extremely buff black guys sneak into a prison court yard to hide from something or someone. They get confronted by a couple prisoners, while all the other prisoners stand around them. The prisoners are questioning whether or not they are actually in prison or suppose to be hear. One of the black guys seems knowledgeable and tries to talk his way out of it. A fight ends up happening anyways between him and a big white guy.

[Continued]

They explain to me that there is a battle between good and evil. That I am a part of this battle, an important part. They need me. Then I break out of the experience because the astonishment was too great. Then I get this strong feeling to close my eyes again and feel as if I need to go back and so I close my eyes. I can tell there is a disconnect. I see one of them with an unhappy face, sadness, that I broke the communication connection with them. I apologize and start to fill myself with the understanding of what they have shown me, the connection gets stronger but never fully connects again, they urge me to promise to not forget what I was shown... I cant remember all the details and wish I did...

I'm at a loss right now...

I have heard of people saying you can have those DMT experiences where you end up thinking your a prophet or whatever, this was definitely one of them. I basically feel like I was being told that I am an angel or have an important role to play in the battle against evil.

Two things, either its true what they told me, or the DMT experience is definitely influenced by your thoughts and memories and experiences. I dont know, and would like some input, especially from some senior members and very experienced DMT users.

Thank you

its either real or its not real..how can we tell..but that doesnt mean that they were wrong..or that its a lie..EVERYONE is a part of this battle..so to speak..just some people realize it and some dont

one thing that is interesting...is how come so many of us have these kinds of experiences...with almost exactly the same content!?!?

Ok so to update, I think that "what" I saw and "how" it was shown was based on my understanding of things. So this entity/entities were communicating to me using my understandings. So its easy to misinterpret what they are trying to say.

It seems now that its getting easier/more clear in "hearing" them. 3rd dose today pretty much showed me that what I saw and what I was being told was in a way that I could understand. Maybe its the only way they can communicate, it seems very mentally based, like telepathy. The better I get at understanding and the more clear my head is the more clear the communication will be.

Meditation seems to be a very important aspect of understanding our surroundings, both outside and inward.

There is indeed a constant battle going on between good and evil, we are all a part of it and we all have our role to play, whether we know it or not.

Consider yourself lucky that you were contacted by the good ones. DMT can be very negative, when you are made vulnerable to evil entities.

Every action we take, however small, has the potential to affect the lives of many people, and by extension the future. Listen to your intuition and believe in yourself. Do what you believe to be right.

sounds like a great journey! It's good that even if having a somewhat fearful experience your not going to get scared away from going back! I think this post may help clear up some confusion...and may possibly come off as more confusing/nonsense!

meditation does seem to correlate importantly to hyperspace trips... not necessarily the sit around with legs crossed meditation but the clearing your mind and being fully surrendered/freed in the present moment (you could be walking,eating,driving,even talking! not just sitting cross legged) having a mind free of constant ego thinking and judgements is key to being able to have one of these intense trips with a clear untainted view.

Thinking your a god or a prophet or the chosen one above all others is a pretty common experience, especially when it is communicated to you so blatantly and with such truth. And it is the truth! However...when you come back from these journeys and 'into' your body and this experience starts being remembered/recalled/translated into English, our Ego's take what happened and directly apply it to itself... making yourself into a prophet/god/chosen one...which is true on one hand but not true on the other, it depends where you are seeing it from, both true and a lie...its impossible to explain in language but ill take a shot.

During a breakthrough experience itself you feel immense connectivity/oneness and definitely not your usual self 'I'. Its like your purely naked to your core and are able to communicate and interact with these entities from this deep place within you that is so powerful and wise and infinite, it is in this state that a DMT experience/yourself may show you many truths, secrets, that you are a god, your potential, that you are a chosen one...and you understand it all!!

However the trip ends as fast as it came and you leave this state of being and come back to your [nearly] normal human self. Imagine that the oneness/core self/soul/godhead/whatever word-label that you experience yourself as in the DMT experience is who every human being that has ever existed truly is.. humanity as one entity on planet earth, although existing in different space/time as separate bodies; is one being/consciousness at its truth, were all the same person and one amazing consciousness. THATS who the DMT entities were telling is the chosen one, the god, the prophet, that's who they are talking too or at least are trying to get through to and talk to! But when you come back that oneness consciousness slips on its individual ego-mask and it interprets that you as the Ego are the god/chosen one and we end up with people running around claiming they are the one and only savior!
[edit]- because perhaps from 'their' perspective these entities can see our true selves/onesness/consciousness yet can also see that we all have this illusion of separateness and ego, and they communicate and have these exercises/simulations to try and point out that which can not be easily seen! they may have even once evolved from the same place we as a species are in!

So on one-hand yes you are the only chosen prophet and the savior of the planet (yet we all are in truth) and on the other hand if seen through ego/seperatness than you are delusional and not a prophet/chosen one (although in truth this would be illusion and you still are...thats what these entities are trying to point out much of the time). Its almost like we are all two people happening. one underlying consciousness that we all share, all are, and is capable of immense love and growth/giving/fearlessness, this true-self remains subtley permeating the present moment through all of us yet many never become aware of it because...the other more obvious self that we are is our ego/name/separateness-illusion that we get caught up as in adult life.

so meditation can be a very important aspect... because if you part the mind of all the words/'I'/labelling/etc you can receive a message from hyperspace more clearly because it reaches where its suppose to go, instead of being claimed by your ego, probably creating fear or a god complex. a enlightened state of being without seeing the world through the ego/mask is one of the greatest gift one can give themselves, unburden themselves of (read: to feel lighter-enLightenment/by shedding that illusion).

hope some of this helps =]

That sounds like a really profound and inspiring experience you had there. I really enjoyed reading that and I thank you for sharing it....

It also sound like you may have a bit of intergrating to do after an experience of that magnitude...

I always heard about "life changing spiritual experiences" because of DMT and other psychedelics but when I actually had such an experience it was like a whole other ball of wax