PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: a lot on my mind, considering another job opportunity, currently mine is not all that bad.
(physical condition) Set: good health
Setting (location): man cave
time of day: (12 or 24 hour system, daylight? starlight? overcast?) 10:30pm
recent drug use: (list also any kind of medication) beer, mj.
last meal: (Time and type) 7:30 spaghetti

PARTICIPANT
Gender: (m / f) m
body weight: (in kg pls) 104kg
known sensitivities: na
history of use: (experienced, novice, first timer - in general and for this specific substance/form)
experienced
BIOASSAY
Substance(s): (list all taken substances) beer, mj, spice
Dose(s): (in the same order as Substances pls, use metric system i.e. g/ mg/ �g) 30mg
Method of administration: (dissolved in water, capsuls, insufflated, vaporized...)
vaped

EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:00 (expand this if you used delayed administration for multiple substances or the same substance with multiple doses. Use indices.)
Duration: (x hours) 1/2 hour from start to finish.
First effects:
Peak: (estimate a time range and note as e.g. T=2:00-4:00 for a range of 2 hours beginning 2 hours after administration)
Come down:
Baseline:

Intensity (overall): (use HRS-like scale i.e. 0-4: 0 = "Not at all;" 1 = "Slightly;" 2 = "Moderately;" 3 = "Quite a bit;" 4 = "Extremely." 2
Evaluation / notes:

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: (0-4) 4
Implesantness: (0-4) 0
Visual Intensity: (0-4) 1
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: (0-4 ; what type of impleasantness ; duration) 0
Afterglow: (0-4 ; what type of positive effects ; duration) 2


REPORT
(write your trip report as you would normally write it here)

I was nervous as usual, so I was taking baby hits. I noticed a very slow beginning like this felt more like the oral route. At one point I took more than anticipated and started hearing the carrier signal. My work issues started coming up. I realized my wanting to change jobs had a couple implications. Although it would be to a field of work I miss, and be more money I was afraid. Afraid of acceptance. I always wanted to be noticed for my work, and now that a company took interest in me I am afraid of being taken advantage of. The issues I have at my current job may be just reflections of my own inner issues. I also started going "fractal", where thoughts were going off on a tangent. I work for good people. I should be happy.

Then the spice played a joke on me. I took what I thought was gonna be an intense hit. So I layed down, my heart pounding, and, nothing happened. Lol. It "said", see you made yourself nervous for nothing.

I also have the idea spice makes me nervous because it doesn't lie. Part of us is afraid to face the real truth. To be exposed and naked for who we really are. A theory, sometimes the visuals come from the ego trying to manipulate thoughts and distract to protect emotion based lies. Spice strips those away to reveal true logical thought devoid of bias.

I need to think of why I want to switch jobs. Then it gave me a message. "My cup runneth over and yet I thirst".





It made me think of the song "The Grudge";

Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate
Desperate to control all and everything
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen


Clutch it like a cornerstone
Otherwise it all comes down
Justify denials and
Grip 'em to the lonesome end

Clutch it like a cornerstone
Otherwise it all comes down
Terrified of being wrong
Ultimatum prison cell

Saturn ascends
Choose one or ten
Hang on or be
Humbled again

So the very last hit you took was 30 mgs...? Or 30 was all you puffed on for the whole session?







I feel similar.

The whole session. I guess I was puffing about 5mg at a time.