It would take quite a bit of backstory to explain the trip I just had. It involves a rather convoluted psychotic episode I had a few years ago that had a profound impact on my life. Needless to say, for a bit, I felt like I was reliving one of the funnier moments of that experience. In addition, I felt like a wave of enlightenment was washing over me (please forgive the indulgence in language) and I realized how every one of those crazy thoughts was likely a powerful insight that was viewed just a bit askew. I felt so happy at this realization.

I guess the thoughts of psychosis brought back thoughts of the girl I got to know at the time. I was given a powerful reminder of how much I wanted to talk with her and the conflict that I thought it might bother her if I tried to do so. I ended up crying at the thought of bothering her, but I felt so strongly that I wanted to see her that I couldn't shake the desire. It felt both blissful to realize how much I still cared about another human being and mournful to know that I might never communicate with this person again.

It feels so refreshing to unrepress some of my feelings, if only for a little while. I might want to mention that I have a very persistent tendency to suppress all conscious perception of feelings or emotions. It's mostly because a great deal of what I feel is painful and thus can be quite distracting, so I guess I usually feel the need to ignore it all or I'll never get anything done.

Anyway, sorry to throw my own stuff in there, just felt it might be helpful to see if anyone could relate with similar experiences.

Anyway, as for the size of the dose, no idea. I've only just started trying DMT and I've been practicing smoking with a machine (375ml wine bottle), and my first few attempts have required modification of technique and machine, but it's getting better. I only say this to mention that it was all unsmoked resin that I was heating. Regardless, the trip lasted maybe 10-20 minutes, I wasn't dutifully watching the clock. I took 2-3 bottles full, but I'm sure the smoke was lighter/denser on different occasions, so it's hard for me to judge anything.

I'll add that there were some fairly intense visuals, I recall at one point feeling like a train filled with vegetables mixed with unhealthy food was headed towards me. Just to add, my reaction was basically, "Whatever, the universe will work however it works, I can't change that, let the vegetables come."

sounds like you are on the right track jay