I was actively researching spice for several years, before synchronicity presented an opportunity to smoke some. One evening A mate visited, and offered to introduce me to it. After setting up a room with low lights, and putting some very cool hemisync mind music on, he loaded a cone with a fat heap of yellowish spice. I kicked back in a comfy chair, and lit up, keeping the flame away from the spice as much as possible. I had read how it was important to do the lot fairly quickly, and that it hit pretty fast. The smoke was medium harsh, like stale herb can be at times, and definately has a unique plasticy odour that is not forgotten easily. I held it - and bang - it hit....... I didn't get why he said he needed to be there to take the pipe from my hand, but after the second toke I did.
My field of vision become concentrated on a simple geometric pattern, shaped not unlike a question mark, that then "fractalised", into smaller and smaller and larger and larger copies of that shape, but it started to morph a bit. I kept my eyes open at first, and it was like a heavily pixelated image, I could still see the room, but there was a floral 5 petal patern superimposed over the top. A heavy buzzz-whine build up in my ears, that became a jet engine roar. I let go and rode with it, and I felt my mind focusing on the edges of the pixels, where I could somehow see tiny little bits moving about - doing stuff - sort of making the reality - just like little nanobots. There was the sense of a benevolent presence, old, wise but childish and playful too.
At some point reality around me all started to disolve, including me. It was like watching all the atoms become larger than the room. I was aware that I was leaving my body, and wondered if there was risk of death, or not coming back, or whatever. Given this was my first try of spice - somewhere I felt I wasn't quite ready to let go, breakthrough, and so I started to fight the whirlpool effect, i decided not to go yet. There was nothing left to look at, but then I felt and looked at my wedding ring. It somehow grounded me, as I could feel and see it, and pretty soon after I no longer felt like I was transporting out of this reality. Vision returned to fairly normal, with a high res pixellation and the transparent floral background. The ear roar died away a bit too, and I was able to talk with my mate, telling him I was o.k. - it was just really wild!
Instead, I now sensed that "they" sensed my perception, and then there was just a huge impulse to breathe great big breaths. I could feel "chi" energy flowing along the meridians (as in accupuncture meridians) in my body and there was the most incredible spiritual rush I have ever experienced, a glowing energy radiating out from my heart, There was the sense of a cosmic mind - operating on a nano scale - that makes everything interconnected in a way objective science has not understood. My body was a city of trillions of beings, and my ego was an imaginary goverment, but not really there at all. There was immense joy, and it also seemed as if they were joyful that I was aware they existed. I started to smile a huge smile, laugh a deep free from the heart laughter - and repeat "Wow!!!" for about 3 minutes. The intense feeling of connection to the universal mind lasted about 10 minutes, along with the pixelation in the vision. There was a remnant buzz for 30 minutes or so, and best of all, for a few days I was able to get very close to the feeling, by playing the same hemisync music.
Since then, I have tried spice a few more times, but rolled rather than in a cone (silly!). The onset is much more slow and controlled and I haven't had anything nearly as intense, but I am getting a feel for "riding the horse" but have to agree with comments on the forum, it's wasted in rollies. Unfortunately, the best little pressent - didn't last long and I am keen to have another shot at hyperspace.
I think next time, preparing the environment so that there are no people around will help a lot. At the time I had quite a few new people visiting my house, and as their host, had to socialise somewhat, this plus a bit of initial surprise at the intensity, plus a bit of fear made me pull back from going there. Next time I want to go there, I want to meet them.
Aftereffects were a feeling of general wellbeing, even strength and vitality that lasted a few days. I smoked far less for several weeks, and became a lot more interested in improving my health, mental foucs etc ready for another adventure. Every now and then I can get back a little bit of that "interconnected" feeling, particular if meditating, or sometimes with music. I am quite deliberately investigating the spice as the technology of enlightment, and was only disappointed in myself - for not letting go fully.
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Nice report, glad to see you felt better after your experience, integrated it well & started to live healthier/more consciously
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Welcome to the nexus my freind
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