What a dramatic word.

I had an REM dream one night that there were thousands of serpents all over my bedroom floor. My roommate burst into my room, swooped up my crystals, pulled all the Alex Grey paintings off the walls, and said, "You can't do this anymore! I'm going to sell the house!" The serpents were wriggling everywhere, panicked and trying to escape.

I felt a very pressing urge to GTFO now.

I saw my roommate for real the next day, and the first thing she said to me: "I'm selling the house." Blah blah blah... and I'm welcome to stay, but I can't cook. I told her about the dream, and she asked, "Can't you just tell the serpents to leave?"

Tell my DNA to leave? Well, no, I can't. I've outgrown the flower pot, as much as I totally loved my stay here.

I can't cook Ayahuasca in my house anymore. Strangely, and fortunately, the changa is a little more clandestine, so I have been able to work on that for the time being.

But I couldn't rest easily knowing real estate agents will be swarming the house with strangers, and in my basement resides a giant bong and calcium hydroxide.

Spent a week's worth of groceries finding a giant 20 liter pot for brewing tea. A sympathetic friend was generous enough to let me invade her house for two days, pound out some kilos in her driveway and cook up a storm on the stove. We even had to go and find special fittings to hook my water filter up to her tap. It was a hassle the size of a brontosaurus.

I frantically searched for apartments. SO many places are non-smoking.

I need a private kitchen to brew undisturbed. So many friends have been asking me for the medicine. So many people want to journey and heal, and I feel like such a whore, rationing my medicine to hopefully make it through the month until I could find a new place...

How do you go about asking potential landlords about smoking? I don't smoke cigarettes. Okay, so, then, "How do you feel about four religious bong rips once every Thursday at 4am?"

It is really difficult to find places to stay that will allow me to support this lifestyle in peace. I had moments of feeling seriously persecuted.

I eventually went to Aya Realty and prayed. I spoke to the serpents... after seeing them all over my floor, exactly like in my dream... and the first thing I felt was, "Holy jeez, you guys really are frantic." I prayed for a safe place to move with my serpents.

The very next day, I went to see another place. Surrounded by huge trees. Landlords want the backyard gardened. A landscaper lives in the house. More trees all over the backyard. I asked if incense was okay. Landlord asked how much. I said, "Well, maybe about once a week, I like to burn a little bit and meditate."

Landlord's response? "GREAT!! Meditating is SO GOOD FOR YOU!! I have a friend in psychology..."

Well. It really was the power of prayer that got me a space. The kitchen is huge with a stove right by the door, so I can brew with ventilation. It's a steamy affair. And who doesn't like the smell of oranges?

It made me realize just how much my practice has grown. I want to be able to hold space and facilitate for close friends when they do need to heal. I want a place where I can do that safely, with no disruptions. A sacred space of healing.

After all the searching, it made me realize just how much ignorance and hostility and misunderstanding is still out there. It made me so grateful for all the places I have and have had to discuss these things freely. I am so grateful to have community that does understand. (I still want lots more, BUT... )

I am called. I am leaving to follow the calling. My practice is officially the centerpiece of my life. It's not something I CAN do on the side SOMETIMES if I want: it is what I do and I have secured a safe space to do it. I need to learn. I need to do serious spiritual work. Wooowww.

I feel... so many things. Major changes, transitions, pushing through a membrane. It feels so pivotal.

Has anyone else felt like being at such a point? How do people who don't own homes deal with having a serious regular practice?

wow, that's awesome. I'm very happy you got a place minx that is sooo wonderful!

Today i'd planned some aya brewing..I really don't like brewing anything at the university for obvious reasons so i went to a sibling's place earlier and asked to use the stove like i did once before with no problems, and was denied. They know that i use these medicines intelligently..even if they still see them as just drugs no matter how i explain it or what information i point them to. It was the *sigh-eyerolling ugghh come-on not today with that wierd nonsense. I really appreciate how they tolerated my strange doings in the past, but it was just frustrating how they didn't seem to be able to come up with any reason besides, 'im tired'. Oh well, no worries or hard feelings. There are other ways
and besides, a few more months and I'm free

I also learned today that a like-minded friend apparently has a very cool landlord.. which is definitely something I'll keep in mind for the future ::: )

Awesome story, minxx, Im glad you finally found a place! I loved the 'meditation is good' part hehe

Luckily I live alone in my place, and I got very quiet non-nosy neighbours, so all the magic can continue as desired

Some years back I lived in a very nice house but with my religious grandparents.. I only did the cooking once every couple of months or so when they travelled, but I did trip more often, at night because they went to sleep early, and there was this nice backyard with loads of trees where I could just hang out without being disturbed.

I feel for the people that dont have their space, wish you all can find one soon enough

Cool story minx, glad it worked out for you. My last house was just really used for extractions and brewing, wasnt good for ceremonys as it was quite noisy, done all my first extractions there though, the memories . I got kicked out and now live with my girlfriend and she has a daughter so I cant extract with her in the house, which is a pain but I can brew no problem plus its really quite, great for taking things! Im really happy where I am, im away from a really bad bit of the town which is great, worth not being able to extract, theres always friends houses for that!

Nice story minx! I'm happy you have a place for you and your friends to use the "sacred medicine". I happen to live with just my sister who hasn't a clue about what i get up to. The other week she found all my jars with the black goo and even found my glass bowel with naphtha, evaporating away She asked what the hell it was when i got home and i quickly just said I was making my own oil (like the oil you put on salads). Don't ask me why i said that. maybe it's because the naptha layer on the top of the mimosa juice looks a bit like separated oil (????)

I felt bad for lying, but she would have had a baby if she found out i was making the most powerful hallucinogen in our kitchen. She bought it.... but still sucks i can't be straight with her and not have her freak out and tell my parents, who live in another country by the way.

I'll tell her the truth one day. When we're not living together

Heh. Congratulations on finding the perfect place. Try planning one's first extraction (or even an aya or cacti brew) while living with an Orthodox Catholic wife. She's a nice person, but just wouldn't comprehend my need to do this. I am simply going to have to rent a cabin for a few days somewhere and hope for success on my first extraction attempts. Long term, I will be leasing an office space for my fledgling online business, so what I hope to do is rent a stand-alone office \ music studio, like a home converted to business use type of place, that will be free of both cleaning services and nosy landlords. A home away from home, when I'm not working. But that is 2 or 3 months away.