6Yoink9,
Welcome to the Nexus. Your post reminds me of myself back in my 40s when I was going through a midlife crisis.
May I ask you what drives you to dosing so hard and in combination?
Have you tried DMT yet? If so what did you think and was it oral or vaped?
I encourage you to take a thorough look around. There's a lot to see here.
Again a warm welcome.

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