Hello shakyradical,
Welcome to the Nexus.
Much respect for your search for healing. I would encourage you to do a lot of research and reading, take it slow and acknowledge your limits (covid changed my life also).
Do you have any entheogen experience yet?
You had mentioned recovery from a substance abuse disorder. Many of us here are in a similar boat and some of us are enjoying a similar time of freedom (10 or more years) as you. I think you will find resonance with the souls here.
If you are just starting out, I would strongly recommend avoiding chemicals and focusing on the plant teachers. Things like mushrooms and cactus . . . there is a LOT of information on how to work with, grow and extract from plants here. It is a delightful rabbit hole.
Again, welcome and hope to see you around.
-Pandora
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