Greetings fellow travelers,

I used to frequently lurk around the nexus but haven’t been around in a few years. A lot has happened since then, but lately I’ve felt drawn back. It looks like I created this account in 2017, which makes sense, as that was when I tried DMT for the first time. At that time, I was in my late twenties, and I had been experimenting with psychedelics for about 10 years. I spent most of my free time reading a lot of Jonathan Ott, Christian Rätsch, McKenna, etc. Much of the time at my dead-end office job (which was killing me) was spent covertly reading others’ trip reports online and meticulously recording my own. I was (and remain) fascinated by the psychedelic experience. It appealed(s) to my lifelong pursuit of a sense of wonder.

As I said, I had been experimenting with psychedelics for quite some time at that point; however, I still hadn’t tried DMT. Though it was not for a lack of trying; I exhausted all my sources. It occurred to me at some point that I wasn’t going to encounter DMT at a party or through a dealer etc…I was going to have to be a little more proactive. That’s when I started coming around this neck of the woods of the internet. After hours and hours of reading, I finally found a tek that seemed simple enough for a novice like me. Even after successful extraction and obtaining a glass vapor genie, it still took a few weeks for me to get the nerve to smoke on my own. Yet, one evening, in my dark little studio apartment, I took the plunge. No sitter. Shaky hands. But…I did it. From that day forward, I consistently smoked a couple times a week for about a year straight. I was completely obsessed with exploring all the new dimensions, writing about them, noting patterns, etc. In retrospect, that sounds excessive, irresponsible, and something that I would never recommend to anyone else. However, that year changed my life. DMT helped me put so much into perspective. I had been so unhappy for so much of my life, and within seconds of my first trip, I felt empowered to change what wasn’t working. Since then, I’ve changed many relationships in my life. Went to grad school and changed careers. Processed a lot of past trauma.

Having pulled the rookie move of smoking DMT very frequently in a short span of time, I needed a few years of down time to integrate everything. I needed to spend some grounded time in the “real world” (and therapy). So that’s what I’ve been up to. The “real world” has been nice and all but lately I’ve been feeling a little lonely. DMT changes one’s life forever and it’s not something that everyone can relate to. Perhaps that’s why I feel drawn back to the nexus. I also have been pushing myself to participate more in life (though my tendency is to be more of a “lurker”). I’d like to think I’ve learned a thing or two over the years in hyperspace, and I’d love to share what I know and continue learning.

My hobbies include learning about the mind (psychology), creating art (collaborating with Midjourney is my latest interest), cooking, being around outdoors, and lots of cozy reading on the couch. Looking forward to connecting with fellow travelers.

Welcome back. I'm in a similar phase. Feeling the call. Needing the support of this community after a long hiatus. In my case, a brain injury, combined with the challenges of raising a teenager, combined with covid and all the things the pandemic time trough, have thrashed my soul. Life long friends turning into nazis, the crazy propaganda and constant high level gaslighting over the last few years in the US have affected me deeply. It's difficult to trust reality when you have a TBI and every day, you hear people saying that up is down, black is white etc.

I began having a very difficult time taking tryptamines. I can take ketamine, which helps my psychological and neurological symptoms, but I no longer have access. I am unable to afford the clinics which charge outrageous prices. Mushrooms and Aya analogues help immensely. I just couldn't bring myself to dose.
Now I'm back on the track and I'm brewing 75g of white vine. I'm going to try one third of it by itself to see how well it works before adding the light. I've become very sensitive over the years and can sometimes breakthrough on 15mg vaped. I just washed the reducing pot out with a tiny amount of water and held that in my mouth and I can feel it. I'm hoping I get a vibratory, visionary experience from 25 grams. I'm fairly confident that I will since I've become so sensitive to so many drugs. a quarter cup of coffee is often too much for me.

Glad to hear you've been getting so much done. I'm interested to hear about your art collaboration. I was intensely creatively productive for a couple of year there before I got buried by the debris from this crazy world. Time to dig myself out again. This is a good place to help get that done.

I agree, these past few years have been chaotic (to say the least) for all of us. I’m sure adding a TBI on top of that has its difficulties.

Interesting to hear that ketamine ameliorates some of your neurological symptoms. Someone close to me experienced a TBI a few years ago and I’ve observed how challenging finding the right medications has been given new sensitivities, etc. Looking forward to hearing more about your new experiences.

Similar story here. In 2019 I obtained a gram of the spice and over the course of a month experienced 15-20 trips. Only a few were breakthroughs as I was using flame to crystal on 20-25mg. I took a break but the stories stayed with me and I shared them often. Had a friend express interest so now I'm back to extract my own and have a new found interest and RESPECT for the spice. I haven't done my first extraction yet but am very close. Welcome! I hope to see your posts around.