Yeah, what's really bothering you. If it bothers you that much that Ant is not telling you what you want to hear then you must have some underlying problems or personality disorder or something.
What's your problem. If you didn't sound like an arrogant prick you could get a lot of help from the good people here.

i love you all too antrocles, despite how I may be judged.

true understanding knows no judgement, neither of nor from.

...it is far more difficult to be at peace and acceptance and to MAINTAIN being at peace and acceptance than it is to effortlessly pick up a pebble and consciously put it in your own shoe...

just know that everything i do, have done and will ever do comes from the deepest desire to be of service. this final, most profound transformation-once integrated- will be used to it's fullest to help others and this world. it is the path i am committed to walking for the rest of my time here. trust that.

A LIFE TRANSFORMED will be posted this afternoon and, hopefully, it will put a big smile on the faces of all of you whom i love so dearly.

with the deepest love and gratitude!!

I'm looking forward to it my brother!

I really am to, I can not imagine the unbelieveable things you have experienced