So I dunno what I was thinking when I loaded up my pipe about 10 minutes ago...I wanted a sub breakthrough but holy crap I must have been underestimating this batch of jungly spice changa..
I dimmed the lights, put on some jefferson airplane and flicked on my salt rock crystal lamp. Talked my glass piece for a minute and sparked my bic..waved the flame around a bit above the bowl to heat up the changa and slowly began to take one huge hit when I could tell it was melting..
I only got about half of what i had packed in..I held the hit expecting to take another after..when
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Things started strobing and vibrating...pulsing at light speed..no auditory carrier wave but I could definatily see and feel it's equivalent..
I dropped the pipe as quickly as possible with eyes closed and almost panicked but managed to sit it out..next thing I know I am sitting in front of the flower of life..and I remeber faces and melting but I also feel part of my memory is blocked..I could feel myslef going away..like my ego shrinking..and it scared me..
Only for a second though and then that part of me was gone..and then OMG! the flower of life began repeating, and repeating, eand repeating and repeating until all there was was a giant constantly multiplying mosaic of the flower of life..a repeating fractal universe of it..that's all I was..it was everything..complete ego dissolution and it was golden. Like comming home..like finding oneself again for the first time in a lifetime..it was so damn real..the best thing I could ever ask for..I feel so clean and wonderful now.
It lasted for a moment and million years all at once..god it was SOOOOO beautiful..a spectrum of wonder unmatched by anything else I can even concieve...I dont even think ive beheld anything so devine and real at the same time..I can't stop shaking!..feel like I ate a bunch of mushrooms right now on the way down..
DMT is simply amazing..sometimes is scary but only for a moment..I wa shaking for a good 10 minutes after comming back out of hyperspace..I dunno where the hell I went..all I remember is this repeating flower of life pattern..but I know there was more going on..I remember things melting and all these faces, like TONS of faces..but I haveno context to put it into..I guess by that time I was to gone to be able to rationalize it..time seemed to not even exist..I couldn't have really been out in full trance for more than 3 or 4 minutes but it felt timeless..
I dont knot why but everytime I smoke a large dose of DMT I come back thinking of tibetan monks and lotus flower and cosmic consiousness..I need to get back into meditation and yoga..I used to be into buddhism and did taekwondo for many years and meditated alot..I cant put my finger on why but I feel after this I want to explore those things again..
Long live the unwoke.