Adulting .. isn't just for breakfast anymore in my life.

I find that I get maybe 4-5 weekends a year free where I can go and do these introspective journeys.
When I had more time, I would build up doses over a month preparing for a heavy or breakthrough or heroic dose. The other downside is I have a list of 26 rules that have to be met before I journey. So I have to plan in advance and any number of things can stop the journey from happening (list or life)

However, I don't seem to have the time to be able to do these build ups like I used to. Going from "not touching something for a year" to full on "incapacitated" levels bothers me a bit. So the best way I can think to ingest is to take everything almost like an Aya ritual. Where I take about 3/4 of what I thought would be "there", then as I come up if I find I didn't make it or I can handle more I add a little.

The downside of this method is : Usually when you are in the thick of it.. the last thing you want is "more intense". However, if you did it to begin with, you are there for sure. I don't mind white knuckle trips, but I find I get less out of it if I am concentrating on my mental health and hanging on rather than being free and carefree over "there".

I have found taking off months in between experiences has really helped with integration or at least finding out which "changes" are really going to take some work and which are doable now. Also I usually get a laundry list of changes I need to make to be like "the self that tells me what is wrong with me" in those states.

I do force myself to take on the dieta rituals for each space about a week ahead of time. Full nights rests, removing other daily activities like weed etc. Thinking about what I want from it and then even sitting with the "teacher" and meditation for the week. Eating well, drinking water and exercising. Staying away from negativity and cleaning up my space. If I didn't grow is specifically, I will add something from my own garden even if it is just a little, so something I showed love too is part of the experience.

Anyone else in this boat? How do you handle it? Microdosing a week ahead maybe, just to get in the right headspace? Any patterns you use? Like Maybe one teacher at a time for a while then moving on?

It's a weird position for me to be in, as I am used to having "all the time I need" normally for these things, but life is good about keeping me on my toes

Unlimited sorry haha

It's hard. Especially if you have a kid and run your own business. I'm lucky to have a wife and child who are supportive. They help me make time for important things. they give me the space for it too. If I get to the day of and things just don't feel right, I'll just bail and postpone it. If I feel like I really need to do it and the set isn't perfect, I'll often do it anyway. I usually end up getting what I need. Additionally I usually start longer outings early in the morning on a weekend day. That's very helpful and comfortable.

I get what you're saying here. planning ahead and making preparations are fine a dandy, however, I find spontaneous moments have been my best. My mind doesn't have time to work it all out and I just go for it. Not everyone's cup of tea but I love it. I found that I planned too much, think too much, and flat out take the fun out of it when I do. I was downright obsessive over having everything just so.

Don't get me wrong. I still plan out journeys on all psychedelics. It's just that sometimes the mood is just right and every lines up where I just go for the gusto, so to speak.

As they say, spontaneity is the SPICE of life! HA!

Weekend mornings is a great idea. I have always followed the 10pm - 4 am schedule.

Also I TOTALLY get the "even if I planned it and things don't feel right, I'll skip". Ugh.. so many times.. it's almost like it's wishful thinking only at some points.

Yeah, I just don't have spontaneous moments heh, all of my time is pegged for family or work or only have a few hours later in the night to myself. (which would be fine for salv/dmt) but not for anything deep or introspective. Usually I'll just chat to people about their experiences or fill out the experience report database.

I have to plan time off and sitters or wait for a plan where the wife is handling everything that weekend and is out with the kids or I go camping, but that gets weird when you are a solo camper.

In 14-15 years.. I'll get my weekends back, but until then I am lucky that I have enough important stuff in my life where I have to make time to be introspective. Just looking for tips as I know there are a few others like me (Northerner for instance) who have the same setup.

PS if I were single and didn't have constant responsibilities, then I would agree with you 100%. Spontaneous can be brilliant.

I have a kiddo and work a lot! I get it! I rarely ingest psychedelics anymore. My priority is my kiddo and she is a trip all in herself! lol Just enjoy the moments.. each and every one.. as they come. Don't build it up in your head too much I guess is what I was trying to say.

Sometimes things just work out to be spontaneous. Sometimes, as odd as it sounds, you have to make time to be spontaneous. See if someone can watch your kiddos some weekend.. catch a quick DMT trip after they go to bed. You have to make some time for yourself for sure. It doesn't have to be all encompassing, it can just be one day a month where you plan a day to do whatever suits your fancy.

Tried breaking through 14ish times in a 3 years once with Levi scratching his head and me scratching mine after 15 or so hits a few times. I used to be scared, now it just makes me mad after hit 5-6, but that isn't the way to head over there. I was told some people are immune but I've been over, over a dozen times on large group aya ceremonies. Figured out I may have tree bark and not root bark, and may be that Im smoking mostly NMT, so the fairies decided I needed to try mimosa for once..

Prepping for that experience now.. seems silly, but I am treating it like a ritual like I would Aya.
Sitting with the catalyst, cleaning everything, taking care of every detail. Making sure I am alone and have the perfect setting. Eating well, loving people, letting pain go. Trying to hold myself to it, but then realized that isn't how this is done. It's best to go when it feels like it's right to go.

DMT may be the fix for this as it is something I could easily do late at night on my back porch.


Thanks again DMN..

~Meta Fate EssCee

I frequently choose weekend mornings, for DMT work.
I'm old, but still, I've always been a morning person. For better and for worser.
My wife and the hounds are sleeping and quiet, I have a coffee and some music, relaxed and comfortable.
In winter season it's still dark at 5 and 6 am, so I dim the lights and put on a candle or two, relaxing on the couch.
This time of year, it's breaking dawn or soft sunrise, I can patio or I can stay inside, very conducive to exploration.

That's my experience, anyway...

That sounds dreamy.. like something psilosopher or acy would suggest.
I am on a late work schedule but I could start waking earlier.

Thank you very much!