Well... this experience certainly awoke something within me.

Still conflicted about the nature of my spirit guides, whether they were real, delusion, or a mental construct I had unconsciously created, I decided to play a hypnotic binaural beat from an old, no longer updated program called Brainwave Generator. It had been years since I had used it, and since all of my spiritual experiences, I didn't expect the tone to hit me as strongly as it did. I started falling into a trance almost immediately. Took a bit to really kick off, though.

I was very specific about what I wanted; to find answers. After a while of meditating to it, I could hear my tiger spirit's voice more clearly. She gave me another lecture, a more severe one. Something started to hit home... with the hypnotic binaural beat, I wasn't so swamped by my worries, and so, I could listen to my intuition more clearly. She told me to stop listening to the hypnotic preset, and put on the deep meditation preset. Almost immediately, she told me to just flow with whatever imagery came to mind.

Unbidden, I saw a clear white, sort of mountainous region. From nowhere, came the words, the Himalayas... then, Tibet. In a flash, my mind zoomed in on something, and I crashed into the image of this monk, a man, I sensed. In a monastery or something? He sensed me straightaway, but was initially silent.

In shock, I looked around. Shortly, the monk calmly asked why I was here? My mind in disarray, I threw words, imagery and sensations towards him. He told me to calm down, and start again, more slowly. I started from the beginning, of how exactly I got myself into the situation, feeding sensations and images, as words didn't seem to suffice.

He mentally nodded, and then asked me to tell him about myself. For some reason, I felt as if I could trust him with anything, and not be misjudged, but fully accepted. I, again, fed sensations, images and emotions from various aspects of my life to him, jumping from place to place. I showed him the image of the Buddhist lady at the clubhouse I go to, noting her interest in Tibetan Buddhism. Ah, I see, he said. That was all. Very serene and calmly accepting. I even cycled through some of my deepest traumas and deepest secrets, feeling it was completely okay to share. He was completely non-judgemental about all of it... a supremely calm compassion, I could feel.

Eventually, I stopped, and he was silent for a moment. Then he asked if he could check my aura. He reached out, and I saw his hand a few centimetres from my chest. Then he withdrew it, and said, very simply, that I worry too much! I worry about the future, I worry about the past, and so, I'm not focusing on the Now. The Now is the most important time, he said. Why worry about whether something is real, or not real? Whether something is true or not true? Of what importance are these concepts, in the face of the Now? I have the Now, and that is the most important thing.

Then, just as calmly, he said goodbye, and our connection vanished. I don't have any doubts as to the experience, because, if I worried over it, I wouldn't be in the Now. A profound lesson, even though I'm not sure why I was drawn to that place, or that monk. It happened, and that's that.

Stunned by these realizations, I again contemplated all of my spiritual experiences, and with gentle questioning from my tiger spirit, I've fully come to accept her as she is. She said, right now, it doesn't matter whether she is really a spirit, a delusion, or a mental construct. I'm experiencing that she's around, so why worry? Answers will come in time, but until then, I should just accept what I have. If the answer turns out that she's not what she seems, that's that, and that I should worry about it then, and not now.

And as it turns out... accepting her existence, exactly as she is... cleared up some heavy blockages around my Third Eye. The acceptance has now allowed me to See, to trust my intuition much more clearly, to be able to think from the Heart, instead of the Ego, more easily. And, in the process, I've cleared up more blockages in my Heart Chakra. From hatred, to manipulativeness, to deeper doubts... all of them bound in a chain. Then I cleared up some issues from my Solar Plexus and Sacral Chakras; wanting independence, that had spiralled into a desire to want to be a loner, believing I needed no-one... my tiger spirit gently and calmly prodded me with questions, in order to draw out the negative energies, to make me face them, and accept them with Self-Love.

All in all, a slew of healings from simple acceptance of my situation, of simply accepting that Now is what matters, and that my worries and doubts are meaningless, especially when I feel with my Heart and intuition more deeply!