Hi everyone, ive been wanting to share what i call my first and only breakthrough experience for awhile. I hope to get some feed back from fellow Nexus members as i don't have anyone to share this with that can relate.

After two years of research i finally decided to try Dmt. My frist few experiences with the spice where very mild because i kept burning it in my herb pipes. Finally i had enough and decided to get a GVG.

Unfortunately my scale got lye in it and was useless, so i went online and compaired a dose on someone else's scale. i forget what dose i was shooting for but it was around 15-30mg dose that i wanted to consume. I took more than half of my remaining spice and placed it over some herb use for making tea. A few weeks later i got a new scale and weighed the remaining spice it was 40mg, so i must of packed around 50mg of spice in my GVG, oops!!!

The setting of my trip was in a old cow pasture directly behind my parents house. I spent plenty of time in that field picking mushrooms, that feild has changed my life in so many ways even prior to this particular event. It was summer time mid afternoon around 4 pm sunny and not too hot. I got positioned on a mound of dirt that was angled so that i was slightly reclining and could see the field which was surrounded by tree lines on all sides. I took a few minutes to relax and clear my mind, i knew some was going to pop this time around i was prepaired with my vape and tourch lighter.

I begun to vape, drew some vapor and held it in. Immediately begun to feel affects the familar calming of my mind and heavy sedating felling along with shimmering landscape came on like my previous attemps but still no hullicnations. I looked around for ten seconds or so and went for another. I felt the same affects. Looked around some more and took a third. Same effects but way more intense it was terrific! I looked around for about ten more seconds and told myself i might as well try another just incase there is some more but it's probably all gone.

Boy was i wrong! I started to see my GVG fill up with vape and i just kept drawing until i couldn't anymore. Instantly it was like i forgot that i was even smoking dmt like i didn't remember anything of my past existance until this very moment. I felt like my whole life and purpose was leading to this very moment it was overwhelming. There was an rediculiouly overwhelming sence of deja vu. It felt like this was my thousandth time in this exact momemnt tripping balls for the first time on DMT. This moment felt ancient. So weired.

I quickly caught myself realized that i was on my way to experiencing what i had been reading about for the past couple of years. Everything was happing so fast i noticed that i couldn't hear anything or feel anything. I looked at the tree line and my line of vision begun to dissapear in vertical planes towards me! I was freaking out! Everything turned super vibrant and cartoon like which sent me over the edge. I begun to panic and said to myself not the cartoon trip i hate that trip, i was referring to the last time i tripped out hard on shrooms and everything looked like it was painted and 2-D.

As everything was turing cartoonish an extreme sound like a speeding up or volume and pitch was overcoming me and thought to myself, oh shit i finally did it i fried my brain i finally pushed my limits and im dying.I thought this overwhelming sound is what it must be like before you die when your brain is so stressed from information overload it shuts down. I thought to myself my family is going to find me lying here next to this crazy pipe overdosed on some drugs. During my research I read about how some people thought they were dying from dmt and i told myself i would never let that bother me but i couldn't help it i thought i was a goner. I felt like i was on my way out of my body, not to have a trip but on my way out permentaly. I tried with all my will to stay in my body i was completely fighting it and screaming noooooo!!! Well i don't think i was screaming out loud but i couldn't tell.

I looked down at my body and it was vibrating, not vibrations you could feel, i felt completely numb. It looked more like static from an old tv. My body was vibrating away! I looked up and everything collapsed and shatterd into a pixelated mess of multicolored pixels, my human self was no more there was nothing left of planet Earth or my identity. As soon as there was the shattering of pixels there was a sense that this reality is actually a computer program of some sort and the program was exposed or compromised or somthing. Like there was an interuption of the program.

After my body vibrated away and everything shatterd, they was no more fear because there was no more reality to hold on to. I herd crazy springing sounds bouncing around and everything was complete darkness, there was no more dimention just darkness. I wasn't floating around in darkness because there was no self or matter to be made of but there was still I? Not me but I? I was like an observer, not a participant of this place.

Upon arrival to this emptiness i herd a familar sound. It was like the cliche outspace sound like a cosmic whistle or something. This sound was the welcoming of my arrival to this place. I could feel an orgainc presence dripping all around but couldn't see any life. All i saw was three multicolored neon squiggles in the far distance. The duration of this time in this place seemed like a few seconds.

All of a sudden there was Earth-like dimention but it was like i was on another planet. I knew i was in the cow field but everything was completely alien. Luckliy it wasn't cartoon like but super vibrant. I was so releived to still be alive and back on Earth even though everything was made of colors that ive never even seen before. There was so many things moving around all i could do was look at the long grass shimmering around, it was utterly amazing. I watched the alien like colors for what seemed like one minute. As things begun to transiton back to Earth like envrionment Alien script appeared out of nowhere and scrolled down and away from me. When that was done a message came to me. I can't remeber word for word but it was on the lines of, "All that is, is all that will be" this message was telling me to accept things for what they are and not what i want them to be.

After i came down i was so greatful to be human agian and have the chance to experience life on earth. I got up and walked over to my family and just chilled with them in the most peaceful and understanding mindset of my entire life. Thank you DMT.

Welcome to the tip of the iceberg. Welcome to what is our birthright, a transcendense that defies all explanation... a sacred place thats always been there, akin to walking over buried treasure day in and day out.

I especially like this:



Welcome..

Tat Tvam Asi

A very lucid depiction of an undescribable event. Good job DreamingNdream, The more journey reports I read, the more I see that they have in common. The transcendence of this existense that is so unimportant compared to the vastness of eternity.
Life is beautiful and it never really ends, it only evolves (or revolves) back to where we are, where ever that may be.

Hi DreamingNdream!

I've read your story for couple times now and I cannot understand how on earth your trip sounds so exactly like one of my first ones. I too accidentally smoked waaay too big of a dose and had such a similar experience, I felt like asking you, are you me?

That overwhelming feeling of deja-vu was something I never forget, all these lifetimes ending up to that point where I inhale that puff of smoke. then BING, things go haywire and all you can think of is "shit ive fried my brain AGAIN! why do I end up in this same point in all of my lives"

then came those weird bouncing sounds while you're in complete darkness, kinda like Large Hadron Collider data turned to sound Here

When I arrived to that place you described had a cliche outspace sound, for me it was a humm kinda like a didgeridoo or a tuvan throat singer. and those (green) neon squigglies blasted towards me in a lotus like flower-towers with eyes all around them, and just as quick as they came to observe at me, they were gone and I was left to that complete darkness alone.

Its funny how similar your story is to my experience, or at least I feels like it, since I possibly cant know for sure

Nice report. I recognize the deja-vu thing. Although at a much lower dose, I also got that same feeling more or less. Crazy time synchronicities, even afterwards for a while. Like there are miniature worm holes between moments/events or something.

The description of the landscape reminds me of some of the lucid dreams I have had. I does seem like like a common theme with these hyperslaps: Be grateful for the life you have on earth, compared to the vastness out there, its apparently a precious thing in its own way.

Dude

My first time breaking through yesterday and I experienced this almost WORD FOR WORD. Like I had already done this a thousand times and everything had lead up to this and life would never be the same.. Wow thanks for sharing

I very much related a lot to this bit when it came to my first two experiences with DMT. The part where you explained how "everything shattered"... I experienced this in somewhat that same way.

I do a great deal of meditating as it is, however after my very first experience with DMT, I felt that meditation would be a healthy exercise to perform before doing it again. Almost every time I've done DMT, in the beginning, "everything shatters"... or what I call the "Dematerializing Phase". Shortly thereafter I was hurled into the aether, being tugged to various directions irratically. Almost as if someones... somethings needed my attention... A LOT! So, as a way to TRY to maintain some discipline out there, I felt meditation was a must before I venture another journey.

So, to move along, as I took one long draw and held it, I watched as my reality was breaking apart. First larger pieces continuing until those pieces just dissolved into a haze. The molecular structure of the reality as I knew it.. or at least what I percieved it to be... crumbled. Breaking apart until there was no distinction from one thing or another, including myself... I floated out in the infinite space.. no difference between myself and the space next to me.. Oddly enough, I was never concerned, worried or scared at the arrival of this information, instead I remember calmly conveying a thought somewhere along the lines of, "I am all and nothing."...

What I find really interesting is the end of your paragraph, how you felt like an observer. Funny... I actually felt like a participant. I felt a part of me that.. maybe not belonged there or maybe I do.. just not yet.. but I felt welcomed and invited nonetheless.

Anywho, I found this to be a very great read! I definitely look forward to reading more about your journeys in the future!

Yesterday was my first healthy dose of deja vu. Like I've had that exact same trip before. I definitely haven't, and it was probably my most incredible experience yet.

Really nice trip report


I too have seen the 2d cartoon world. It sounds like you had a bad mushroom trip while in cartoon land so this may be hard, but try not to fight it. Analyze it and think about what it means. Even though it feels like it will last forever, remember it's only a few minutes. Also, you can't stop your trips, you can only steer them.

After my unintentionally strong breakthrough (60mg) like you, I opened my eyes too early and everything was 2d high contrast black and white. At first, I thought I came back to the wrong reality by accident. My brother and his gf were sitting on the couch but I could no longer see 2 people there. It was just 1 ball of "energy". I understood that to be the joining to two people that are in love.

you are in for quite a ride

everything dmt will show you is valuable. just let it happen, relax and listen.

good luck

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