please, use paragraphs.
your post makes me feel like you should either stop using dmt completely or take a longer break from it. care for yourself, eat well, exercise, study or work.
why? it sounds to me like you have troubles with difficult experiences. these are not avoidable in any part of your life, may it be dmt or social things. but under the influence if dmt everything gets a bit tougher than it already is.
dmt will not fix your life. you have to do that. sit down, be hinest to yourself, think about what you dont like and fix it.
good luck
