Hi There BlackNoise,
Welcome to the Nexus,

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Oh man, I gotta say your intro essay is such a TEEEAAAASSSEEEE. I cannot speak for others, but what the heck? You feather tickle us and that is all? I need more man, MOAR,

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So, can you say a bit more about yourself? Like what brought you to the Nexus and why you would have described your demeanor as angry?
Also, what did you do? You mention this wonderful brew. Did you make/take ayahuasca or one of the myriad and effective analogues? Any trip details you are comfortable discussing?
Anything else you would care to share would be wonderful.
Warm Regards,
Pandora
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